Venting about diabetes & work
I work at a very well known (well known inside the UK at least) pub chain in England and had to leave a few hours early today due to my libre getting knocked off at work.
I could feel that my blood sugar was high but obviously couldn’t check my blood sugar as I didn’t have a spare libre (or blood test kit) with me at work.
I told one of my managers about it and they seemed quite annoyed as it was a really busy Friday night, and told me I’d have to make up the hours lost but did let me go.
I’m home now and feel really shit about myself for letting it happen. I know it’s not entirely my fault but it could have been prevented had I brought a spare, and I hate that I had to let all my coworkers down for it.
They don’t really understand diabetes very well (as usual, nobody ever does) and I’m scared that they think I’m just being lazy or looking for an excuse to leave early.
People don’t talk much about how much this disease can bring you down mentally, in so many aspects.
Knowing that this is permanent, that I’m seen as a burden when it affects my ability to work.
I feel like no matter how hard I try to prove everyone wrong and show that I can work just as well as everyone else, I will always be seen that way and nobody will ever properly understand that it’s not something you can always control 24/7.