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He makes me happy that he's mine and I'm his
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He makes me happy that he's mine and I'm his

He told me how much he loves me and how good I make him feel when he's with me made me so happy. And he was so cute for gushing those feelings out to me. Ahh I love him so much. I'm so glad that we're together and being with him just seems so natural as if it makes sense for him to be in my life and without would just feel wrong. I'm glad that he feels safer with me and he enjoys being with me. He deserves so much and I want to make him happy

u/GlumConsideration548 — 4 days ago
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I want him in my arms

I can't wait to be able to meet him soon. Being able to give him all the hugs he deserves and feeling his warmth enveloping me. I might be a bit shy too so I just want to bury my face in his chest and listen to his heartbeat that's only for me to hear. I want to take in his scent and feel how his hair would be under my fingers. I want to feel his presence with me instead of just behind the screen. I love him, I adore him.

u/GlumConsideration548 — 6 days ago
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Uncertainty makes me scared at times

It's just one of those moments when I'm away from him, my thoughts will be plagued with things that would make me stressed over whether or not he'll be the one to stay.

I'm afraid of uncertainty and worry of risks. If it's not going to last and just a short term one, why should I give it my all just for me to be heartbroken in the end? I thought I would never experience such when my ex told me he's a yandere but the things he does was for making me into a me who is not me.

My bf means the world to me. He promised me that he wouldn't leave me. Said that I am special to him. How he's trying to get better and strengthen our relationship while he works on the hurt he went through with his ex. I made a server in discord of his lovely and kind words for me to read whenever I felt like I need it. It works most times to reassure me. I just wish I'm more stable than this instead of being a burden to him. He's too kind to say that I am and is good at protecting my emotions.

u/GlumConsideration548 — 25 days ago
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I wish I'm more stable-ish ramblings :3

It's been tough lately with how I live alone while trying to keep my freedom of living how I want, away from my family. So I have myself to rely on physically mostly. Having a job where I'm the senior and carry a lot of weight in less than half of year of me joining this company. And my low self esteem that thinks how ugly and fat I am. My bf says otherwise but he wasn't there when I felt like beauty was not something I can have growing up. I'm trying to lose weight and hopefully be able to like my body more.

But of course because of all of this I've been having mental breakdowns and in tears more. Watching my calories and forcing myself to exercise really brought me to the brink of it. My bf comforts me when I feel like I need it and I'm surprised he still hasn't left. This morning was one of those days though.

He feels anxious with the idea of forever when it could reassure me that he will never leave me. At least he promised not to leave me. Though, it's hard some days with the physical distance between us being in a ldr. With how he's trying to move on from his ex who hurt him. I feel selfishly jealous. I want all of his attention. I try my best to be understanding but it gets to me and makes me think of how horrible I am for being this selfish. It makes me think how I feel as if I'm asking for too much. He says I don't but I'm afraid that one day he'll just say that he has had enough of me. I wish I could just be more normal about this and be a better gf to him.

He made a post about his ex's child around father's day who he grieves not having. How he thought he could have a child with her when they were together. How in the post he said how he reached out and commented on one of her posts and was hurt and wondered why she privated her page after. How he felt like he lost a soulmate. It just feels as if he's still thinking of her even when he has me. It hurts me everytime I got to his profile and see that post. And if I scroll further down, there's posts he made for their anniversary. Even when I knew to stay away, I keep on going back to his profile because I'm curious about it and he doesn't private it so there's nothing wrong to isn't it? It's not like I'm hoping him to make a post about me as if to the the world how important I am but he did that for his ex. It just feels as if I'm even less than his exes. I feel terrible because it's his right what he wants to say what he wants to say, what he leaves in his profile. But here I am being jealous of an ex he's trying to move on from. The same one he made loving posts about, still up in his profile. Still, I guess he's still taking his time to move on.

He mentioned how with his exes it was mostly fear and insecurity and that the relationship with me is something he's happy of. But I can't help to think what if I'm a mistake too? He used to say in a loving way of his exes and only realized afterwards they're bad. What if I'm doing the same and hurting him without me realizing? I try my best to treat him right with how right he treats me. But I'm not perfect and I'm scared of messing up this relationship I so want to keep until I die.

I do love him a lot. We'd talk to each other everyday, all day. It feels more enjoyable with him than with other people.

Sorry that got kinda long but I hope this is fine to post here.

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u/GlumConsideration548 — 27 days ago
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Yearning while accepting things

He loves me. I don't want to make him hurt because of what I want. Making him anxious is the last thing I want to do. He has things he needs to go through in his own time and how much his mental capacity will allow it for now. I'm scared if I'll start pushing him and ended up pushing him away.

I want him to get over it so that I can feel reassured but he's been hurt and it takes a lot. I worry I'll be a burden if I be too clingy and demanding, even if he says I don't. Forever makes him anxious and I'm trying to come to terms with that. That maybe I'll need another form of love. But at the same time I'm scared. If he doesn't say that, there's still a chance of him leaving even if it's just 1%. I don't want that. He's been so good to me. I don't want to let him go. He's mine. Not anyone else's. Mine. Especially not anyone who has hurt him.

u/GlumConsideration548 — 1 month ago
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I just wanted to be the one

I'm selfish and yet he says I'm not. But I know I am because I want all of his attention on me. I want him to think of me the most. I want him to *really* think of me the most. Because I really do think that of him. He's done so much for me to move on from my own ex and then accepts me even if I start to be whiny, selfish and demanding especially with how unstable I could get when I feel so down and paranoid as if the world is against me.

But I have to be understanding. I have to understand that he doesn't love like I do. He gets anxious with the idea of forever even if that would reassures me. He's not even over his ex yet. He told me it was a wonderful relationship and I'm bothered by it. It makes me feel like I'm just a shadow to the women he was with. He says I'm special, and yet I feel like he treats me the same as any other women. He's genuinely nice and I'm glad he is. But I'm supposed to be his and he is supposed to be mine...

Maybe I just don't make sense right now. I love him a lot and I would spend lots of my time talking to him with how much I miss him. And yet, I'm not the only one he thinks about...

I know I should accept it when my darling is not a yandere or as obsessive. And so I try to be understanding and make my love and expectations of love from him to be more 'normal'. I know that might be bad to the people here but I truly do love him. I don't want him to leave me...

u/GlumConsideration548 — 2 months ago
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I want him near me 3:

Being on either ends of the earth is so difficult. I'm so used to talking to him everyday that it feels so unnerving and anxious not hearing from him today much because he's feeling unwell. I want to let him rest and not be annoyingly clingy but it's so hard to not want his attention. Gaaahhh I hope he gets better soon. I wish I could be there and hold him while he rests

u/GlumConsideration548 — 3 months ago
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Think of only me, my love

I want to be able to hear him whisper into my ear how he's mine and I'm his while feeling his breath on my skin. His touch as he holds me close as if I'm the most precious thing in the world. I wanna cling onto him as much as I can whenever I feel sad and have his comfort until I'm better again

u/GlumConsideration548 — 3 months ago
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We were binging shows and he didn't mind when I was sleepy and wanted to sleep. And I woke up to us still being in our video call with him currently sleeping too. The call has gone on for 9 hours so far. Maybe a few more hours before we have to end it. Until then, this is one of the few ways I can be close to him even if we're physically far from each other. It makes me reassured with how much he wants to spend time with me :3

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u/GlumConsideration548 — 4 months ago
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I've been through this pain and frustration from being in one before but it's as painful as always. Being so far away from him. We made plans to meet but something unfortunate came up. It can't be helped with how things are with the both of us. We plan to delay meeting in person instead which I'm grateful that he's trying and there's more time to prepare. Still it hurts because I looked forward to the original plan so much. I hate how it triggers me to have spirals to how I feel as if I don't deserve any good things in my life. He's sleeping now so I have to be patient. I hate how selfish I am for being this upset when I know he's been trying so hard to juggle his jobs and studies, and spending time with me from the moment I wake up until he has to fall asleep, which he will stay up late just to not be away from me. I know this is solvable. I just want to let out my frustrations somewhere

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u/GlumConsideration548 — 4 months ago