Mother's Day Grief- 2025 Abortion
Hi everyone,
In august of last year i had an abortion at 20 weeks. It was a boy and I wanted to keep him so badly. I found out pretty early on and went back and forth for a while. During that time, I was extremely sick with HG and had to quit my job. My ex was also making everything worse and I was having breakdowns every day. Still, I couldn't bring myself to do it and I kept walking out of my abortion appointments. It was the toughest decision of my life, but it was for the best. It allowed me to get out of an abusive relationship and get the help I needed.
I still struggle to accept that it was the right decision. Sometimes i feel okay with the decision, but other days I feel like I made a big mistake and I ruined motherhood for myself. Especially on days like today, Mother's Day, I really feel the grief.
I've thought about how I'd be celebrating mother's day with my son today. What we would've done. Who would've wished me a happy mother's day. I've been asked a few times today if I'm a mother and I say "no. not yet" and I wish I could tell them that for a few months I was a mother and I miss my son endlessly. I really wish I could've gotten a Happy Mother's day from anyone.
For anyone who needs to hear it, Happy Mother's day ❤️ Even if you never got to meet your little one for whatever reason, you were a mother and will always be a mother. I'm excited for the day I meet someone who treats me right. I'm excited for my future children. I wish everyone here the best. Whatever it is, trust yourself and trust that whatever happens, you will be okay 😄