u/GlumSstrawberry

for context ive notice carpet beetles around my room for about two years. i would sometimes see a couple on my floor and sometimes in my closet. the open spaces of my room are kept clean but ive been scared to clean some spots like under my bed and dresser (i have just cleaned these spots yesterday and found no larva)

ive been scared to clean out my closet the last two years but i cleaned it out today. in the corner i had a bunch of stuff just pilled up from highschool and my freshman year of art school so lots of paper and scrap fabric along with clothes that have fallen off the hanger and some stray socks. i found 2 beetles and maybe 9? larva. i didnt count because i was really freaked out, as soon as i saw them i threw everything on the floor in my closet away. im assuming this is where they are nesting and where the problem is stemming from since that corner of the room is where i usually see them.

my question is though ,is this enough? i vacuumed the floor also and cleaned out the top of my closet as well but im still very paranoid and on edge when ever im in my room. should i call someone to spray just to be safe?

i have to go to physical therapy for tmj. he spends half the session with his fingers in my mouth. hes 46, has 2 kids, and divorced. (im 24) he isnt cute and hes bald and he laughs like a women. deeply ashamed but i cant stop myself. im literally so lonely i would have a crush on any man who treats me gently. i spend half of my day fantasizing about having sex with him, part of me wants him to take advantage of me and the other part of me is disgusted. he is super unprofessional and had me touch his face and talks to me in a commanding voice when he tells me to show him how i do my stretches and it just makes me feel even worse and even more delusional. i cant tell anyone this and needed to share so badly 😭 i feel like such a massive creep too like hes just doing his job and im being a freak about it 😭 when he tells me i probably only need a few more sessions i literally feel so rejected and it makes me depressed which is honestly so fucking stupid. like idk what to do i dont want to feel like this he is so old and he has a pic posted on facebook of him wearing a fedora 😿