r/femcelgrippysockjail

Fml

I hate being autistic I feel like a fucking alien around everyone, even my own family I feel judged and out of place. animals don’t seem to like me either. It makes me feel like I’m evil or something. I’ve gotten so used to being alone I don’t even want friends anymore. I’ve only ever had online friends and not one of those friendships lasted. anytime I’m in public i feel like an escaped zoo animal the way I’m stared at, It’s not my fault I’m fucking hideous.

I’m genuinely so hard to look at and I have a wall for a personality. I truly think a happy and an exciting life was never meant for me. I think I’m gonna be in the background like I always am, just always looking at people enjoying their lives while I die in envy.

Caught in that limbo of hating everything and not caring, but also wanting to care🫩🫩🫩

I’m so stupid for ever thinking I could make this work but all my life despite how much I just wanna rest easy, I do wanna make movies, and they also say follow your heart or whatever even tho it’s been so tough, I have to take meds all the time, deal with my traumas like, anyways so I made a horror short film about being a Girlfailure called girlfailure, pour my money and heart and soul into it cuz I directed and acted and wrote it, send it to film festivals and keep getting rejected left and right and when I asked for feedback I got this, I’m so done. I can’t with this anymore, I’ll just post a link to it here in case y’all wanna trash on it too or just watch idk. I don’t mind either way, I guess this is what happens when one follows her dreams :/

Also do please tell me if I’m actually that misogynistic and transphobic as a woman, I’m having a existential crisis over it thx
the movie

Edit: wow what can I say I’m completely overwhelmed by everyone’s support and feedback. Thank you so much for taking the time to watch girlfailure and all of your opinions, which unlike that festival was fair and respectful and just like everyone i was shocked by it still despite it being a mid tier festival i just thought there would be more professionalism atleast? I sent some films in the past to many mid tier festival and it wasn’t like that and I just don’t know how to process it. I saw a few people asked if it’s real and unfortunately it is, I can’t make the festival fully public obviously cuz I don’t want to get in trouble with them more then I do already, probably but seeing how constructive and supportive you all are to the film and me, just highlights how rude the festival was honestly. It still stings coming from them but it’s whatever. I decided to release the film publicly cuz I have enough, I make the film for myself and people like y’all, not them and I can’t thank you all enough truly for the love and support you’ve shown. I guess now it’s back to the drawing board, whatever that means, well atleast I’m glad to know I’m not misogynistic and transphobic, oh my god what the hell was that all about? Anyways. I’ll try to keep going, without you all being the freaking best I don’t know if I would have, so thanks again.

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(before anybody says "yall get play" no i don't at all this is just a hypothetical scenario created solely bc i wanted to brag abt how good that book is)

Like holy shit almost NONE of them practice personal hygiene, they absolutely stink and having to be stuck with them in an elevator is hell

In reality they just don’t look at their looksmatch, I’ve seen couples like this all the time. I never see an attractive guy with an ugly girl irl. There’s no hope for me I’m gonna die alone.