u/Impressive-Can-3375

4 weeks of EMDR was not working even a little bit, I don't understand how desensitizing myself to what happened to me will give me a lust for life and make me finally go to school and get a job. My therapist literally told me "you have to get better so you can go to school and work" BROTHER WHAT 😭😭 what kind of life is that - being a drone 💔. I have this existential fear that there is something out there personally targeting me making sure I don't enjoy loving and im scared sometimes that it will win. Anyways being beaten and molested sucks and im bloated.