u/Relevant_Storm6059

Was in a “Situationship” with this guy who’s like 7 years older than me for about 8 months. Stupid motherfucker seems to play around locally because last night I went to my friends’ friends party and saw him with his arms around another girls waist the entire night while he pretended I didn’t exist. I would’ve made a scene but I’m not that kind of person so before I got into my car to leave I keyed his. I guess he found sometime during the party to block me on everything because I couldn’t contact him afterwards. It’s the next day and I feel like a fucking clown but whatever. It’s better to be alone anyways

Whenever I tell you, I get butterflies in my stomach that travel up to my mouth and block me from saying anything more than that. I fail to meet your gaze as I say it as I’m horrified of seeing you feign a smile similar to that of the one on my face. You follow the glimmer in my eyes hoping to see a world that doesn’t exist. What you see is merely the varnish of a teary layer that forms and lies dormant in your presence like a shield. It falls apart when you’re gone and suddenly I can breathe again.