u/prettyhoneyskin

I just need to vent because I feel so hopeless. He had a job interview today and I was genuinely so excited for him. I’ve been asking all week to see him and if I could take him out to celebrate or grab something to eat together depending on how things went. I even asked again last night but he said he was too anxious about the interview to think about celebrating which I understood. Today he called me after getting home but the call was very short and he said he would call me back soon so I waited almost two hours like a fucking puppy waiting for its owner.

Eventually he sent me a voice note telling me he got the job and was going out with his family to celebrate. And honestly I felt so stupid…..I completely understand wanting to celebrate with family and I’m genuinely proud of him but I’d been asking all week to do the same thing I wasn’t asking him to choose me over his family I just wanted to celebrate him too and show him how proud I was. I told him I wasn’t mad and suggested he could make it upto me and I could take him out for his birthday in a couple of weeks instead.

Somehow the conversation went sideways and he started getting upset saying I was making everything about myself and basically implying that I ruined his day by making him feel bad. That’s wasn’t what I was trying to do I didn’t raise my voice or try to start an argument I just wanted him to understand my perspective and ask that next time can he please allow me to celebrate him aswell and let me show him how much I care for him. He basically asked for space for the rest of the night now I’m sitting alone in my room crying cause I feel like i can never do anything right I thought I was being supportive…..

We have been at each other throats lately but this weekend was his final straw ig. He just wants some space to figure himself out and get him and his life together but he basically said he would check on me and I can still call when I need him or if I need help with school ect. Also agreed to do a couple of other things to see if our relationship will get back to the point where it’s healthy and we can try again. I spent hours crying today but he comforted me so rn I still smell like him. It’s only been a couple of hours but I feel so lost and broken. I don’t wanna get out of bed or eat or basically do anything at all I’m just gonna rot away in my bed and hope the pain stops….

Whether he keeps his promise or not I’m just done dating. I don’t wanna hurt myself like this again.

I feel so damn stupid I should have known better…Why do I never learn my fucking lesson

I’ve noticed there are a few types of guys who say they’re into femcels but none of them seem to genuinely want us.

1)The first type likes the idea of a femcel. They think we’re shy, clingy, loyal, and devoted but they expect dating us to magically erase the trauma, social awkwardness, trust issues and emotional baggage. Then they’re disappointed when the reality doesn’t match the fantasy.
The second type understands the reality but that’s almost worse. They see our isolation and vulnerabilities as something they can benefit from. They assume we’ll be dependent on them, have no other options and make our whole lives revolve around them which they aren’t necessarily wrong but that dynamic has always felt concerning to me.

Either way it feels like we lose in the end. If someone falls for the fantasy they eventually become disappointed by the reality. If they like the reality it’s sometimes for reasons that feel unhealthy or self serving. It just feels like in one way or another we’re always the ones who end up paying the price. We’re the ones who get hurt, who have to change ourselves or who end up disappointed because we hoped this time would be different. I just hope one day that happy ending actually exists for us too.

We call every night no matter what. I don’t know how to sleep without hearing there voice. Im literally anxious and sad I don’t know what to do with myself….