Unexplained infertility and dealing with the stress
For background context, I am 34 and my husband is 38. I just completed my 17th cycle without a successful pregnancy. I haven't even gotten a single positive pregnancy test. I have had blood work done, HSG, all of that looked perfect. My husband had his sperm analysis and his motility was mildly low, but otherwise everything looked good. I've tried Mucinex, CoQ10 and some of the other recommended supplements. I do have a diagnosis of PCOS and have lost over 100 lbs, and my GYN now says nothing in my labs indicates any evidence of PCOS now.
I don't have a single person that I am close with that has struggled to get pregnant, so I am feeling quite alone and don't really have a great place to turn to talk about these things. Family and friends are supportive, but they don't fully understand what this is like. My husband has 2 children from a previous message and does want another child. He's been a bit difficult and has the old school mindset that he's already fathered 2 children so his stuff works just fine. Because of this, it took a while to convince him to get the sperm analysis done, but he did do it. I am a nurse practitioner and I have done so much research and understand everything, but he doesn't seem to fully understand what his sperm analysis means and thinks I am saying it is his fault when I mention the motility part. I love the man, but holy cow, he is stubborn.
I have noticed my mood being a lot more down lately and I am having a hard time mustering up the energy to do anything. Going to work zaps all of my energy out and I genuinely want to come home, lay around for a little while, and then go to bed. Nothing else. Of course, I am doing other things as the kids have sports, but I almost crave the ability to go sit somewhere quiet and read or drown in tiktok videos. Maybe I am just using this as a sounding board, idk. But how do you guys get through all of this? I go see my GYN Monday, so I don't know what the next steps for me are, but I know that the stress of constantly hoping that my period won't come, but being disappointed 17 times in a row is weighing on me and I am struggling.