You know, I didn't expect anything that day. I was just standing there at the bus terminal, tired from waiting, thinking only about getting home. Then you came up to me and asked a simple question and somehow, that was the beginning of ft something something I didn't even realize would matter this much.
We ended up on the same bus, and out of all the empty seats, I found myself sitting beside you. I don't know why, but it felt like you saved that seat for me. We didn't talk much at first, just small moments, small glances but it already felt comfortable. Like it didn't need effort. Then before I reached my stop, when the bus paused at the gas station, you started talking to me again. Just random things, simple questions... but it didn't feel random at all. It felt intentional, like you were trying to make the moment last a little longer.
Even when your phone died and things got a little messy with the messages, you still found a way to reach out.
And when we finally started talking after that, you would always check on me asking if I was okay, making sure I was safe. Even on the days when you were busy, you still found ways to check on me every day. Those simple efforts, those small gestures... They meant more than you probably realized.
I think what makes this harder is how natural everything felt. You came into my life at the most unexpected time, and somehow, you made something so ordinary feel special. You didn't try too hard, you didn't pretend you were just kind, and that was enough to change something in me.
And maybe that's why it hurts a little. Because I know we're not in the same place in life. You still have so much ahead of you you're about to graduate and step into a new journey out at sea. And me... I'm preparing for my own path too, applying abroad and trying to build something for my future. We both have things we need to focus on, dreams we're working and praying for. I understand that our timing doesn't match. I really do. But there's still that quiet "what if" that lingers.
What if we met at the same phase? What if things were just a little different? Still, I don't regret any of it. Not even for a second. Because you showed me something I didn't fully believe in anymore that there are still people who can be gentle, respectful, and genuine without being asked. You made me realize what I deserve, and now I know I can't settle for anything less than that. So even if this ends here, even if we were only meant to meet for a short moment in time... I'll always be grateful. You didn't just pass by in my life you left something meaningful behind.
And I guess this is me, learning to let that be enough. It's a little sad, yeah. But at the same time, it's something I'II always look back on with a smile. So thank you -for that day, for those small moments, for everything you didn't even realize you gave me. Maybe someday, in a different time, things could be different. But for now... this is our goodbye. 🤍
Ms. Golden Star🌟