Hi everyone,
I am a 26 year old woman from Belgium.
For the past 3 years, i have been struggling a lot. IBS, panick attacks, getting dizzy, neck pains… Last year, i got fired from my dream (but very demanding) job because of economic reasons and I started to hyperventilate. I was overstimulated, my heart rate went through the roof, I was shaking non stop, It was a hot summer and everyday, I felt like I was burning , but my body temperature was always normal. I had a beep in my ears… i could name 20 more weird symptoms but i want to keep this brief. I was afraid to get out of bed, i thought i was going insane and would die. I went to the ER and they just sent me home with a pill so I could sleep, the next morning, i kept on hyperventilating. After 1 month of pure hell, I went to the ER because one night, my bed was soaking wet from sweating and I just lost it. The doctors at the ER did not take me serious once again, but examined me this time.
They put me on Escitalopram 10 mg for the anxiety and Propanol for my high heart rate.
I go to the psychotherapist to do EMDR and brainspotting for trauma ( i lost my father at a young age and the layoff was kind of a traumatical experience).
After 4 months, I started to feel a bit less nervous, but very tired and I had low blood pressure so I stopped propanol. I felt depressed and went to 15 mg Escitalopram.
I found some stress relief with Yoga, belly breathing, reading & humming.
Now, after 1 year, and 10 kg heavier, i wanted to go down to 10 mg because I miss having joy over simple things. Now it is 3 weeks after lowering my dosis, I feel very nervous and every little stressful moment makes my body freak out. My chest tightens, I start to shake and I feel anxious and sad. Fortunately, no more hyperventilating.
I just want a normal life, I am so afraid this is going to kill me one day. I mean, this cannot be healthy right?
I am vaccinated (2x) and had Covid twice.
blood results: high cortisol, high T-norms, but nothing alarming or out of charts. (ofc lol).
Right… and they are not willing to give me a diagnosis ofc.
Are there people who experience the same thing? I am looking for understanding & reassurance ❤️ I feel so fucking alone in this.