Me and my girlfriend haven’t had sex yet
This shits embarrasing, I don’t feel normal. I (18f) have been with my girlfriend (19f) for well over a year now, and we haven’t had sex with eachother yet. It’s not like we haven’t talked about it, it just hasn’t happened. And it feels like it’s been so long at this point that initiating anything feels unnatural. But I want to *so bad.* I’m just scared and anxious. The same thing happened with my last partner, and we broke up before we ever got intimate as well. I also wasn’t honest with either of them and told them I wasn’t a virgin, though at this point I’m sure they have figured out because it’s fucking obvious how inexperienced I am. I don’t want to give so many details that this is identifiable so I will leave it there. Is there something wrong with me? Why can’t I just have sex? We’ve been together for so long and I obviously have the drive I just can’t do it. Is there a cure to literally break through the invisible wall that just feels like a big void of guilt and shame when it comes to the actual act of sex? It’s so confusing being a WOMAN and craving that sort of intimacy when I grew up just so guarded from that part of myself. It doesnt help that it seems like LITERALLY everyone around me has gotten past that stage already. I know I’m technically young, but people are so sexually active at such a young age these days I just want to be normal.