Why does Blood cause such a Weird Reaction to me?
Every time somebody is bleeding or I even just think about Blood my mouth starts to Salivate.
I don't normally react that way even to thinking about really yummy foods I like.
I've always licked my own blood and was a horrible picker, always picking scabs and such.
I never had a bad pain tolerance and I was exposed to a lot of horrible things early on (thanks reddit 😢) so the idea of blood, or needles, or anything even close to that was never scary to me
However as I grew older and went through phases of Depression and self harm, I can't even think about blood without.. wanting it??
Like I feel so cringe and edgy talking about it- wth
If I smell it, think about it, see it, or (especially) all 3, my body can't focus on anything else
I don't know if It's just a hungry thing or maybe even a sexual thing?
I feel like I romanticize and fantasize about it and the idea of pain or anything harmful like that does sound pleasant, and I have very very very briefly scratched the surface of that with my partner
But my body reacts that way to blood regardless of whose bleeding, it could be anyone.
Am I missing Iron in my body or something, I've heard that with certain things that could cause you're body to try 'other' ways to get iron
But why does my mouth Salivate and I imagine I can taste it.
Why do I want to taste it
Help 😔🙏