My 💔 is so broken.
My dad has survived so much over these past 3 years- seizures, a stroke, loss of mobility and the list is endless.
Recently he was hospitalized for a pressure wound that did not get treated properly whilst he was first hospitalized. He got admitted again and had to have emergency surgery. He is now back home with us after being in a rehab hospital for 2 weeks.
He has become a shell of himself 💔 he can’t talk at all. He doesn’t even respond non-verbally. Even trying to read his facial expressions is difficult. His body is so weak and fragile; just bathing him and changing his diaper is stressful because we don’t want to hurt him. We are taking care of him the best we can (we have a caregiver and my sister and I do nighttime caregiving) but it breaks my heart to see him like this.
Even though I did not have a good relationship with my dad, I hate seeing him like this 💔💔💔. I can’t help but cry every day because I have already lost my mom. I don’t think I am ready to lose my dad 💔💔💔💔💔 I think I am struggling to accept that end could be very near 💔💔💔
I am sorry if I’m not making sense but I just needed to vent 💔💔