Becoming Christian after suicide attempts
I apologize if this is heavy, it is just something I've been thinking about a lot in recent weeks.
I have personally attempted to end myself four times, and it is truly shaking me at a fundamental level. I can't help but wonder if I actually succeeded at one point and everything I am doing currently is just a fantasy as I mentally perish, but also I can't help but wonder if I have a reason that I have survived. Maybe it isn't my time to go. I know it's asinine but I can't help but wonder why I am here and others who have done similar things to me are not. I guess I'm just wondering if others have had such revelations or experiences that began from such a turning point. I'm a woman in my early 20's and previously I never considered religion in any capacity, but I feel like it is calling to me to change my life and to believe in something deeper. Any thoughts or anecdotes from those who can relate would be sincerely appreciated. Thank you ❤️
