I think life is inherently meaningless but it's something to be enjoyed. The older I get, the harder it is for me to enjoy anything 🙂
Not sure how to write this without being insensitive, boring, or giving an excessive background but I'll try.
I'm fortunate enough to be able to say that I have tried a couple careers, travelled overseas, have saved some money, have a small friend group of three, no kids, no house, new partner, Australian 30M.
Times are certainly harder for others, so I want to be mindful, but I still want to give a background here.
The reality is, no matter how much I appreciate what I have, I still don't know who I am, where I'm going, what brings me joy.
The older I get, the more I believe that we're all here for no divine reason. However, if life is all that we will experience, then it makes sense to enjoy it while it lasts. I've always had the thoughts since early childhood but the gravity it's getting stronger.
I'm also beginning to struggle with more realities beyond my control, like the fact that:
time is finite, I will get old, have health issues, and die;
a larger part of society is being left behind,
the geopolitical landscape is transforming and becoming more fragile,
greed has and will continue to consume political priorities,
consumerism and economic growth are necessary unrelenting pollutants,
environmental protection is largely considered a nuisance,
societies will grow but there are always consequences that harm others.
The reason why I mention these perspectives is not to explore them here, but as some context to why so many simple things in life have become unenjoyable.
I like hiking mountains and camping, but it's less than 10% of my life. I don't know how to enjoy anything else.
a. How does one enjoy nothing?
b. How do you enjoy routine tasks?
c. Im not sure if I am enjoying anything, or if I am but I don't know that I am?
d. How do people find new things to enjoy?
If you resonate with any of that yarn of mine, let me know about you: how you think, what you focus on, what you do, or anything else?
I probably won't get into a DNM here but would love to just read about you all in the comments