accidental lexapro withdrawals are making me wonder if i should get off
just a warning for talk of suicidal thoughts!!
i 20F have been on lexapro since january and its the first time an ssri has actually made me good! ive been on a bunch of different ones over the years, some for years with high doses, and some for a couple months that were terrible.
but lexapro was like magic, i genuinely was shocked by the difference in how i was feeling. so much so that i was wondering how i survived day to day before hand.
i take 15mg every night with my birth control because it makes me nauseous if i take it in the mornings. but i forgot to call in a refill on my birth control a couple weeks ago and ended up stopping my lexapro by mistake because i no longer was taking my birth control at night and simply forgot about my lexapro. thats when everything went downhill, suddenly i was having the most insane mood swings, i was crying all the time and feeling lost. i even started having really strong sducidal thoughts - but i knew i didn’t actually want to do anything and it was just withdrawals. but the thoughts themselves were super overwhelming and started causing me lots of distress. eventually i was able to get a grip and take my medication and eventually evened back out. but the idea of feeling like that again was terrifying.
this week the same exact situation happened. my birth control needs to be refilled and i missed one dose of lexapro. when i tell you i woke up today in total distress. i have been sleeping and crying all day. ill go from crying to laughing to crying again, and panicking because i feel crazy. i even had a huge outburst and ended up screaming at my mom. all because i missed ONE SINGLE DOSE. ive taken my medication since then so hopefully ill be back to feeling normal soon.
i guess my main thing im trying to say is when i accidentally go off, even by one dose, i completely lose my emotions and become a fuze waiting for a spark. and im wondering if i should try a different medication all together??
i feel great on lexapro and i dont want to stop it, but i cant keep feeling like this whenever i miss a singular dose. i know i need to talk to my psychiatrist about the withdrawal symptoms and everything, but i guess i wanted to see what my fellow lexapro takers feel about things?
if anyone is still talking lexapro and relates i would love to see how you deal with things!! thank you :)