How can i better calm myself down when having bpd?
17M, i have bpd, was diagnosed at 13, ive been living with it for years before 13 having ongoing signs for 3 years b4 the diagnosis, ive never learned how to deal with it or control it, the overwhelming feeling that stay stuck in my mind just make me more upset because i know ill be like this forever and cant change that but ik i can get help from strangers on the internet 🥹, everyday i wake up and feel a void in my chest but the void is just the feeling of not being happy, its the overwhelming feelings of anger, embarrassment, and feelings of being upset, so im already exhausted with just having to wake up and feel that and i also already get irritated really easy and have a low temper, and it ruins friendships and relshinships becuase i split under any amount of pressure and i can't control it , like lets say my partner told me they love me, simple like "i love you" and the next time they say it its like "i luv uu" or "i love youuu" ill get really scared i did something id get scared they dont wanna talk to me, id get scared there seeing someone else and that's when the questions come out, and it suck when they your fp becuase your already obsessed with them and they can make you feel pure hatred twords them with the slightest change in they tone, but how can i stop that, or atleat slow down the process, i dont like the feeling of switching up on someone for no reason becuase it hurts me too