I struggle a lot with sticking to things I start because of BPD. I be super motivated at first, then randomly lose all my motivation and just give up

browsing the bpdlovedones sub was a huge mistake. i feel like the worst person on planet earth now, like i'm not meant to be alive because of the disorder i have.

please stop demonizing people with bpd, we hate ourselves as much as you hate us. we just want love. we don't mean to hurt anybody. we can't control any of our emotions (and believe me i've tried everything).

Im '35M' girlfriend '36F' a mom of 3 two boys one girl '7M' '11M' '18F' suffers from bpd. I met her in 2023 at work . We hit it off been together for 4 years Like instantly fire. I know its uncommon for two people to connect almost instantly but can this be the rare exception?. Feels like im in constant state of walking on eggshells. Everything i say theres an issue. Im a very honest and blunt man and my opinions are always pure true never ill intentions. I was cut from the cloth of honesty even if it hurts always remain honest. She has a legit issue with most things I do and dont if my opinion aligns with her own. I should stress that we live together and shes a divorcee and ive bever been married or have any children of my own. Im also very introverted and she being extroverted and I dont mean to be all over the place just giving a back drop and general understanding of where I am.

She has constant episodes of splitting, love bombing , then BAM! Back to square one. This has been going on for 4 years. We split in 2024 for 10months then we reconciled summer of 25. For her credit she has improved her mental but not enough for my standards. I just dont know if I can continue. Im exhausted and god knows I try every day. Her kids are bratty and whiny and I personally do not like her son hes very disrespectful 11 year old. they are very very very sensitive so even dealing with them its a battle. When I moved in I did all the cleaning and the cooking and guess what I still do. I just paid a $600 dollar light bill by myself . When I try to lead the house to bring maitenance and structure to the house she battles me on that. Ladies and gentlemen its just so much with this woman. And I can go on.. I just dont know what to do. Thinking of renlisting to escape.... im overwhelmed . What am to do?

I am 37, new mom and a therapist with zero client right now but I am hoping to can get that. I studied psychology to understand myself, I definitely had some traits of borderline personality (0-100 in a sec), anger issues, never suicidal though no real sense of self, push and pull in relationship, some traits of histrionic- very look at me, sex addict at one point.probably little NPD as well - a lil manipulative.
I am a SA survivor and I have inattentive adhd self diagnosed, looking into medication. Been in therapy for last 3 years and have therapy training gestalt 2 years and SE 2.5 years (5 modules) finishing soon. Learnt a lot and helped in my career too. But still not there. Motherhood definitely unmasked adhd.

Always been with humanistic therapy so hints but not real diagnosis yet. Hehe lot medical student syndrome probably. Content in life and learning and savouring every moment.
Have a loving partner and the most amazing 8 month old. Reconnected with family but distant with my alchoholic abusive father. Mom is still with him and it bothers me. so some acceptance remaining to do. I need to remind myself I am not her mom. She is mine.

Raw thoughts and love that I can be so raw here on Reddit. New to Reddit and just using this for more perspective. Need to get my shit together so that I can enjoy my motherhood more.

I'm having a hard time today. I haven't taken my meds in three or four days because of a mess up at the pharmacy. I finally got my dose and took it a couple of minutes ago but still feeling overwhelmed.

I feel like sobbing most of the time today and slightly suicidal (no plans).

Plus I met someone new and I'm pretty sure I have overwhelmed them already today. I'm tired of feeling like this whenever I start falling for someone new.

I'm just tired of being fucking sick all the time. Is it even worth it?

So Little context my Main Doctor had to leave for pregnancy leave, which is completely fine I get it. I got a replacement Doc which only worked on Fridays which is the worst day for me so I had to cancel most appointments. The thing is also I didn’t open up to her that much I cannot do that with everyone so she only asked me how I was and prescribed me my pills which I’m fine with I know I’ll get my main doc back. Come to finde out She didn’t want me anymore? It was my last time with the replacement doc and I had to make a new appointment and the lady at the desk asked me if I wanted to stay with the replacemen? I was like no? and she told me my main doc asked since I was with the replacement for a while now and I got to know her better? But no what I cancelled most of the appointments? I dont know what to think but I know I’ll never be able to open up the same way I did. It genuinely hurt me so much like why does she want to leave me? I’m I that horrible and complicated? I also know I’m probably overreacting or something but yea.

Dear reddit Friends!

I'm new in reddit.

I'm a freshly diagnosed with bpd, have just started olanzapine.

Some of my friends have left I guess they just wanted fun and parties.

If u need anyone to talk , you can always text me!

Feel free. I would like some company sometimes I feel like others do not understand.

I have also started psychotherapy

F,25 yo.

i have had this experience in every romantic relationship that i can remember. i am highly jealous but it feels deeper than that. once in a commitment when the super good early feelings come down. i am constantly preoccupied with who they could like more. texting, social media, people at work, people at the gym, coffee shop, celebrities etc. are now all a visceral threat to me. i think sometimes i am not wrong but there has got to be another way to date modernly and have this. If i heal my self esteem and emptiness will this go away?

Hi the title is kind of the whole question. Whenever I need to talk to my partner with bpd about something that I need or would like them to work on it always leads to them splitting. Is there a way to approach and speak to them about my needs without triggering them? I try really hard to emphasize that I’m not upset with them and that I’m in no way trying to criticize them when I bring things up but no matter what the same thing always happens.

I don’t want to end up in a place where I stop mentioning things all together just to prevent splitting, but I’m also incredibly burnt out by this cycle.

I’m sorry if posting on here is off base since I don’t actually have bpd but I’m hoping someone can give me some insight so I can better support my partner, thank yall so much.

From couple months I was experiencing wery rapid and dangerous mood swings. I was choosing violence as answer to every conflict with partner.

I had outbursts of madness, agression, literally blackouts from anger.

Hour after I could just cry and look at damages - partner's tears, stuff throwed everywear, damaged things... Then depression hit and I was laying on the flood, crying and begging for punishment.

I was cutting myself after some of this episodes, but the last time partner noticed my pattern - after outburst I quaietly closed myself in bathroom. He acted quickly and took my knife before I did anything.

We talked, we jelled at each other, there were tears and hugs... Final decision was that I can't just move out to try fix thing from distance.

I admitted myself at psyhiatric hospital. I asked for help even when I was scary of bpd stigma, being sended home with just a paper. But doctor listened to me, to everything, every detail. They will try to help me manage those blow ups, mood swings, anger and agression issues.

This will be easly 4-6 weeks. But I packed myself, drive to the hospital that I know and being here will be more comfortable than in new hostital. I signed papers.

Time to manage my demons. Time to ask for help even I am scared.

Hi there,I’m F,24 and living in Ireland.I was diagnosed with BPD in July 2022.Ive experienced a lot of trauma in my life such as sexual abuse,my sister dying due to suicide,abusive relationships and other things.Over the past 4 years I’ve been in and out of therapy but I’ve heard DBT is the best for helping BPD (correct me if I’m wrong) that’s what my psychiatrist told me I need.I am starting therapy next week once I’m paid I’m using BetterHelp the app.Its the most affordable therapy I can find that provides DBT.My post is basically does life get better with BPD especially if i genuinely put in the effort in all aspects of my life? My sister as I said took her own life but she also had BPD too,she wasn’t taking her medication,wasn’t attending therapy and unfortunately was in an abusive relationship and also let down my her psychiatrist when she needed help.Just knowing she had BPD and that is how her life ended scares me because I do genuinely want to live and get better I just find it very hard to cope but I am taking my medication,going to therapy and working on my self.So if anyone has any advice that would help I’d really appreciate it:)))