u/Graciieee_

Today, I had an anal manometry. Not only was it embarrassing (even though the 2 nurses were very sweet and kind) it still was embarrassing but it was just miserable when I realized I couldn’t push anything… her finger, the balloon—- But it got worse when the water test came, they filled the balloon with water and gave me 5 minutes to push it out of the toilet… I couldn’t, I cried to myself, because WTF, then she gave me another round this time 2 minutes but with my legs up on a stool… still nothing, even when I had the urge I couldn’t push it out, it was like a workout.

and then I cried, when she came back in because I was already embarrassed, fed up with everything, and the hemorrhoids were killing me, I also was on my period.

What really was the kicker, the part where they were testing pressure and they were done with that section, and she went to take the thing out it got stuck… INSIDE OF ME, And its STILL inside my ass 😭😭 she said it should come out the next time I poop and gave me a fleet to take tmrw, she said I didn’t have to do anything today because my asshole is already stressed and to prepare I already had to take 2 before the test… and the 2 fleets this morning irritated my hemmroids.

but it was just insane and pretty evident that there is something wrong with my butt… the nerves or something, because I cant push for shit. 😭 so that was just very defeating so I cried.

Now I’m taking a hot bath with epson and bubbles… eating dairy free ben and jerry ice-cream.

I feel like shit.

I’m over thinking bad and I realized I will probably never have sex or like poop ever again…. I need to calm down.

bye.

Today, I had an anal manometry. Not only was it embarrassing (even though the 2 nurses were very sweet and kind) it still was embarrassing but it was just miserable when I realized I couldn’t push anything… her finger, the balloon—- But it got worse when the water test came, they filled the balloon with water and gave me 5 minutes to push it out of the toilet… I couldn’t, I cried to myself, because WTF, then she gave me another round this time 2 minutes but with my legs up on a stool… still nothing, even when I had the urge I couldn’t push it out, it was like a workout.

and then I cried, when she came back in because I was already embarrassed, fed up with everything, and the hemorrhoids were killing me, I also was on my period.

What really was the kicker, the part where they were testing pressure and they were done with that section, and she went to take the thing out it got stuck… INSIDE OF ME, And its STILL inside my ass 😭😭 she said it should come out the next time I poop and gave me a fleet to take tmrw, she said I didn’t have to do anything today because my asshole is already stressed and to prepare I already had to take 2 before the test… and the 2 fleets this morning irritated my hemmroids.

but it was just insane and pretty evident that there is something wrong with my butt… the nerves or something, because I cant push for shit. 😭 so that was just very defeating so I cried.

Now I’m taking a hot bath with epson and bubbles… eating dairy free ben and jerry ice-cream.

I feel like shit.

I’m over thinking bad and I realized I will probably never have sex or like poop ever again…. I need to calm down.

bye.

fm/22 I’ve told my doctor about this before and they told me to see a hormone doctor because my prolactin was high at some point but it went down , but since it went down he was like there is nothing to worry about…

but these are my TSH levels:

Sept 11th, 2020: 1.691

April 3rd, 2021: 1.245

Sept 24th, 2021: 1.047

March 29th, 2023: 1.15

May 23rd, 2024: 0.777

Feb 12, 2025: 1.028

April 1st, 2025: 0.862

Aug 13th, 2025: 0.565

May 5th, 2026: 0.537

And the normal range is : 0.45-5.33

but at this point if it keeps going down it will be out of that range…

and these were my prolactin levels:

Feb 12th, 2025: 50.8

Feb 26th, 2025: 27.1

April 1st, 2025: 20.2

Aug 13th, 2025: 23.1

I have been sick since 2020, it started off with headaches and then a year or two later I started getting headaches and feeling fatigue. Doctors kept pinning it on Anemia and vitamin d deficiency but after getting all that up I still felt bad but I will say the headaches improved a ton but that fatigue not so much…. Years after the symptoms started popping up I started to feel hungry/thirsty all the time and then constipation and gut issues and thats where I’m at now. (Chronic Fatigue, constant hunger and thirst, and gut issued, also my vision sucks)

last year I went to see a gastro because I have insurance now, all she did was say I have ibs and put me on linzess and I got a colonoscopy and a endoscopy because I told her I’m always anemic … I’m fine on the inside. she just told me to do low-fod and linzess… none of that worked , linzess just fucked up my stomach and gave me acid reflux.

Today, I went back but scheduled with another doctor he thinks I have like anual disfunction or something… so im getting scheduled for a test snd he also gave me IBSRELA to take… and sent me in my marry way mind you he was like an hour late to the appointment…

I really don’t want to take that… he didnt even say what it was he just gave me samples and sent it to the pharamacy, I think I’ll take it as my last resort I want to fix up my diet before hand and try benefiber for like 3 weeks.. idk. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I have another appointment with my Primary care doctor for a physical, so we will see how that goes.

I have been sick since 2020, it started off with headaches and then a year or two later I started getting headaches and feeling fatigue. Doctors kept pinning it on Anemia and vitamin d deficiency but after getting all that up I still felt bad but I will say the headaches improved a ton but that fatigue not so much…. Years after the symptoms started popping up I started to feel hungry/thirsty all the time and then constipation and gut issues and thats where I’m at now. (Chronic Fatigue, constant hunger and thirst, and gut issued, also my vision sucks)

last year I went to see a gastro because I have insurance now, all she did was say I have ibs and put me on linzess and I got a colonoscopy and a endoscopy because I told her I’m always anemic … I’m fine on the inside. she just told me to do low-fod and linzess… none of that worked , linzess just fucked up my stomach and gave me acid reflux.

Today, I went back but scheduled with another doctor he thinks I have like anual disfunction or something… so im getting scheduled for a test snd he also gave me IBSRELA to take… and sent me in my marry way mind you he was like an hour late to the appointment…

I really don’t want to take that… he didnt even say what it was he just gave me samples and sent it to the pharamacy, I think I’ll take it as my last resort I want to fix up my diet before hand and try benefiber for like 3 weeks.. idk. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I have another appointment with my Primary care doctor for a physical, so we will see how that goes.