u/Grand-Movie-1007

Just some headcanons/ stuff i wanna talk about.

Nicole and Jecka would probably buy fast fashion. Nicole cause its cheap and Jecka to follow trends? (idk I feel like she'd want to follow with trends but like not changing clothes constantly but have a like up to date wardrobe and buys new things when her old clothes look ugly)
idk if ari would. Kelly would but her parents are rich so she probs gets expensive stuff. just anything that looks good. Megan probs wont, Karen might but probs only wears stuff in her room.

I feel like Jecka would probs go into Nursing after high school.

Would Nicole drink energy drinks? what kind if so. I know she tells Crispin off for it but I feel like she's the type to be hypocritical or go like I'm hot, he's ugly so its stupid when he does it.
Other than drugs what kinda hobbies do you think Nicole, Jecka etc would have/ do in their free time.
If Nicole and Jecka were handcuffed together who'd kill the other first?
I feel like Nicole secretly writes poetry or keeps a diary.
I dont think Nicole is a sociopath, probs just rlly troubled, hella depressed and has ptsd or something. And shuts off her emotions.

-also idk I feel like Nicole wouldn't be that interested in tik tok, shorts whatever, while Jecka would be more intersted in it/ addicted. Cause I feel Nicole would like long documentaries a lot more.

I kinda wanna read some studies about it. idk. anyone know anything good to read? or just interesting studies about mental health in adolescents. I know like i can google but I wanna see if anyone has like stuff they've read and found interesting.

Idk I got like a few scars and like it kinda bothers me... like I didnt expect them to become like ketoid and hypertropic... its kinda annoying me... idk my body is just bothering me... also i realised when im drunk like everything goes super red... like you see everything. and that kinda freaks me out. bout it tbh

I've been getting like rlly strong urges every now and then and usually i just try to push through them. what do you guys do to like feel better?

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I had a little walk and found that helped

So mini rant. I've been so busy with life im actually panicking. I'm kinda panicking rn. I have a group assignment due and i need to finish it before last minute cause like it also hinges on me being a good groupmate. anyways. I also have work. I work 2 jobs and study full time currently. and lowkey put my body through so much im scared i'll die soon. Like im on a bunch on prescription medication. I take dexies to help with my adhd but i also have a bad caffine problem. the dexies fixed it a little but im super scared im going to have a heart attack. though im also on beta blockers and diuretics so it balances out the bp levels.
Though im also worried about becoming ugly cause like i wanna be pretty but with all this stress and the lack of sleep and just running on pure adrenaline, medicine and the need to have money and study im scared i've permanently ruined my body. that i'll be a gross monster forever just because i wanted to spend a bit more time on my assessment instead of just idk. im so panicked over the fact i may have permenently ruined my life bc of my choices to get more work in. in the past 5 month ive pulled like 17 all nighters. one week was rlly bad where i went like a whole week with like 1-2 hours of sleep everyday. i cant afford to stop cause... idk i need to work to afford rent and groceries. I need to study so i can make more money in the future. i need to save money cause i lost a of it while moving and renovating. i'm still getting paid teenager wages so its absolutely ass. like i was being paid as a minor for my first year at university and i only just got to 18 year old pay. though ive been getting better at not relapsing though its been hard not to...

Sorry this is a weird like rant.

Like this has probably been asked a billion times. Where do you even meet new people esp like with dating and stuff in mind. like ik like uni and such but people there are so like closed off and dont talk to anyone else. i try dating apps but its always guys on there and like lowkey i dont like men all that much. idk this is also lowkey a rant cause ive been listening to a lot of girl in red and in a very strong yearning era of my life. lol. also like especially keeping in mind like schedules. i dont rlly have the time to join clubs outside of work and uni. I like to hang out in the city and like parks but yeah.