I genuinely don’t have any friends. at all.

Usually, when people say they don’t have friends, they actually do, but they only talk to them occasionally; that’s not the case for me. I don’t have even one friend. For almost 5 years now, I have been going weeks without leaving my house. I don’t speak to anyone, whether online or irl.Ii go days without even speaking a word. I’m so tired of it all. The only interaction I’ll have is with the person I’m staying with, who I don’t even have a good relationship with and who works the entire day, so we don’t really ever talk. I’m so far gone that I think I’ve lost all social skills I previously had before my isolation started, because I’m not speaking to other human beings. I have a severe amount of social anxiety and have had it for most of my life. Nothing ever seems to help, and I’m hopeless at this point. I hope this doesn’t sound like I’m just trying to be edgy because I swear I’m not. I don’t want to be like this whatsoever. I want to have an actual life.