Why am i so afraid?
Why i am so afraid to allow this man to love me? I have what feels like a genuine connection with him and yet I’m afraid. Afraid to let him love me, afraid to let him in, afraid that if i do I’m just going to get hurt again. He makes me what to trust him and believe that he is all in, but time and time again i hurt. I open the door and my face gets played in, I’m trusting and every naïve at times, but there something about this that feels so real but yet so fake at the same time. I want to just lay in his arms are the st him blindly. I want to protect him from getting hurt again, but who is protecting me? I want so badly to trust him, so badly to love him with my full heart but what if he hurts me like the others did? What do i do ? My heart can’t take anymore heart break, i don’t like being vulnerable, it is such a scary feeling. Being hurt shouldn’t be a requirement to loving someone. I can’t shut off my brain long enough to trust the process, i want so badly to love him fully and yet im just so afraid.