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i’m feeling really shaken and could use some honest perspective.
i used to think i was infertile, so i let men i was seeing come inside me. one of them was this guy i’m talking about now. we stopped talking when he got a girlfriend. later, i was with another guy, he came inside me, and i got pregnant. after that, i knew to never let another guy finish in me again.
i had an abortion, but i didn’t necessarily want one. i felt like i was in a situation i didn’t want to be in, and i didn’t want to become a mom, so i went through with it. it took a huge toll on me mentally and emotionally. i was so sad and genuinely not okay. it was traumatic for me, and i still feel regret and sadness about it sometimes.
recently, i hooked up with the first guy again. before we had sex, i told him what happened. i specifically told him he couldn’t come inside me anymore because i had gotten pregnant, and explained how traumatic the abortion had been for me. he seemed to understand. the first time we had sex after that conversation, he didn’t come inside me.
yesterday, we had sex again. he said he was about to come, but i didn’t think i needed to remind him not to come inside me because i had already made that clear. a few minutes later, i felt something and asked him, “did you just come inside me?” at first he said no, he didn’t. i told him, “yes, you did. i can literally feel it.” then he said it was an accident. he also gave me different explanations, including that he didn’t know, but i had already told him not to do it and explained why before.
i started freaking out. i felt so scared because i immediately thought about how awful and traumatic the last pregnancy and abortion were for me. i felt like i might pass out from the anxiety. i took plan b, which he offered to buy, but i am definitely already ovulating. not only can i tell, but it’s also on my flo app. he seemed to think that if he came inside me, he could just give me plan b afterward. i don’t think he understood that it may not work the same way if ovulation has already happened, and i don’t think he should have made that choice for me in the first place.
i know i’m not using birth control right now, so in a way im giving these men too much power. i tried to go on non hormonal but i couldn’t do to my past of pelvic inflammatory disorder, and i’m trying to figure out what option is right for me. i don’t think i could do hormonal birth control because its effects on the body. but aside from that. i had already told him clearly that he couldn’t finish inside me. i feel violated and scared, and i don’t know if i’m overreacting. am i? what should i do?

i haven’t been able to sleep for more than one or two hours a night. occasionally i get around four hours, but it’s usually very broken up.
i’ve tried melatonin, both regular and extended release, seroquel, hydroxyzine, nyquil, magnesium, glycine, and other natural sleep supplements. i’ve also tried using a fan, wearing an eye mask, and changing my sleep environment. some medications make my heart pound, which makes it even harder to sleep. nothing has consistently helped me fall asleep and stay asleep.
my doctor thought the issue might be related to low serotonin and prescribed supplements intended to increase it. the supplements have reduced my anxiety, but they haven’t improved my sleep at all. strangely, they have made me feel more okay while getting almost no sleep. i don’t feel as bad as i normally would after sleeping so little. i’m not saying that i don’t need sleep or that functioning this way is healthy, i just think it’s strange that i feel more normal despite still barely sleeping.
i’ve also gone to the er several times, but they send me home without treating the insomnia or offering any real solution.
what should i do at this point? what type of doctor, testing, or treatment would be appropriate for insomnia this severe? i’m genuinely scared.

for about three days, i was staying awake for extremely long periods because i couldn’t sleep, sometimes around 20 hours at a time. now i’m staying awake for fewer hours, but i feel like it’s harder to sleep. i’m struggling to fall asleep, and when i finally do, it’s hard for me to stay asleep. i keep waking up, and it feels like my body will not allow me to get consistent, restful sleep.
the most disturbing part is how i feel when i wake up. immediately after sleeping is when i feel the most disoriented and confused. the sleep inertia and confusion/grogginess lasts all day, and even after the initial confusion fades slightly, i still feel like i never slept at all and feel the same way i would feel if i stayed up for days. even if i sleep a normal number of hours, my brain and body feel exactly the same as they do when i’ve been awake for an extremely long time.
i never feel like i slept anymore. i’m always exhausted, confused, and disconnected from myself, regardless of how many hours i actually sleep. i’m scared that the lack of sleep has damaged my brain because sleeping doesn’t seem to make me feel any more rested, alert, or normal.
i don’t know exactly what is preventing me from falling or staying asleep. i think underlying anxiety might be involved with unable to fall asleep, but i don’t know whether medication would help. unfortunately, ativan is the only thing that has helped me sleep so far, but i haven’t been given a prescription for it.
i’ve tried eating at normal times, breathing techniques, and exhausting myself during the day. i feel like i’ve tried everything, but nothing has restored the feeling of having slept. has anyone else experienced this constant exhaustion and the feeling that they never slept, even when they did? will this eventually go away, and what helped you?

Hi, I’ve been experiencing persistent episodes of dizziness multiple times a day, pretty much every day. During these episodes, I feel like I’m going to pass out or suddenly fall asleep. I also experience weakness, confusion/disorientation, significant brain fog, and sometimes feel like i can’t breathe.
It can happen randomly, although I’ve noticed it sometimes gets worse after eating.
More recently, I’ve also noticed that drinking plain water seems to trigger the dizziness almost immediately, even if I only take a sip. However, the episodes of dizziness and weakness started well before I developed this reaction to plain water, so I don’t think that explains the underlying issue.
I also tried using the Stair Master recently and had a very intense reaction. My heart rate increased significantly and was pounding, I became extremely dizzy and weak, started sweating heavily, and felt like I couldn’t catch my breath almost immediately. The symptoms continued getting progressively worse until I stopped.
I’m trying to understand whether this pattern sounds more like an autonomic blood pressure issue, orthostatic intolerance, blood sugar issue, electrolyte imbalance, anemia, or something else entirely.
Has anyone experienced a similar combination of symptoms? If so, what ended up being the cause, and what tests were helpful in figuring it out?

i’ve struggled with sleep for a while, but normally my issue is just that i go to sleep extremely late. once i actually went to sleep, i could still sleep for like 8 hours. but for the past three days, something completely changed and now my body literally will not let me sleep no matter how exhausted i am.
i don’t even really remember what started it. one night i tried to sleep but couldn’t, and i had an appointment early the next morning and a bunch of things to do that day, so i ended up staying awake almost 24 hours. after that i finally slept, but only for about 5 hours, woke up, and later slept another 2 hours. even that sleep felt extremely weird and shallow.
yesterday i was absolutely exhausted and tried to take a nap, but i physically could not fall asleep. that’s when i started realizing something was seriously wrong.
last night i went to bed at a decent time because i had things scheduled this morning. i took melatonin, turned my phone completely off, laid in pitch blackness with my eyes closed, and stayed there basically the entire fucking night. nothing. i could not fall asleep no matter what i did.
it’s morning now. i even took more melatonin and tried again, and my body still will not let me sleep. i’m going to miss everything i had scheduled today because i’m so sleep deprived that i genuinely don’t feel capable of going anywhere.
i’m terrified. the sleep deprivation is making me extremely anxious and my thoughts are becoming scary. my entire body feels exhausted and desperately wants sleep, but it’s like something physically will not allow my brain to switch off.
i don’t understand what could suddenly cause this when i’ve always been able to sleep before, even if my sleep schedule sucked. how do i break this cycle? what could cause someone to suddenly be completely unable to fall asleep despite being exhausted?
i’ve considered going to the hospital, but i’m scared they won’t take me seriously, and right now i don’t even feel capable of getting into an uber and taking myself there. my family also isn’t taking me seriously and has been extremely rude about it, and i’m basically dealing with this alone.
has anyone experienced something like this? what caused it, and what actually helped you sleep normally again? at what point does sleep deprivation like this become something you should go to the er for? what would they even do at the er?

three weeks after a surgical abortion i’m apparently still testing positive because i still have hcg in my system. i haven’t had sex since the procedure, and i went to my gynecologist who confirmed there isn’t any retained tissue and the pregnancy is gone.
what’s confusing me is that at first after the abortion i actually felt pretty normal, but over the last couple of weeks i’ve started feeling worse again instead of better. my symptoms have seemed to feel like they are slowly been coming back.
also, my alcohol tolerance seems completely different now. ever since the abortion i get drunk way easier than i used to. tonight i only had two glasses of sparkling white wine, and when i got home i was extremely nauseous and had one of the worst headaches i’ve ever had. this has never happened to me before.
has anyone else experienced this after a surgical abortion? could it just be my hormones still adjusting even if i’m still testing positive for hcg? or has anyone else noticed their alcohol tolerance changed for a while afterward?

i had a surgical abortion about two and a half weeks ago. immediately after the procedure, my pregnancy symptoms went away. recently, some symptoms have started to come back.
i’ve been having severe dizziness, episodes where i feel like i might pass out, excessive thirst, frequent urination, fatigue and weakness that gets even worse if i go even 30 mins without eating, dysregulated emotions, and beige/light brown discharge.
i had some bleeding after the procedure, but it was light and did not last long at all.
has anyone experienced these symptoms around two to three weeks after a surgical abortion, especially excessive thirst, frequent urination, dizziness, or pregnancy like symptoms returning after they initially went away? if so, what was the cause and how long did it last?

i had a surgical abortion, and pretty much immediately after, like within a day, my pregnancy symptoms went away. i had food aversions, weird cravings, nausea, etc. while i was pregnant, and all of that basically disappeared after the abortion.
i didn’t have sex for two weeks after the procedure. but recently, around the two week mark, i’ve noticed that some of those symptoms seem like they’re slightly coming back. they’re very mild and don’t feel exactly the same as they did when i was pregnant.
for example, i’m having tiny food aversions where foods i normally like just don’t sound that good anymore, but i can still eat them. i’m also having what feels like cravings, but they don’t really feel like the pregnancy cravings i had before. and every once in a while i’ll feel a little nauseous.
i went from basically having zero symptoms after the abortion to suddenly noticing these mild symptoms again, and i’m confused about why that would happen. could this just be from hormones shifting or my body adjusting after the abortion? has anyone else experienced pregnancy like symptoms disappearing and then mildly coming back a couple weeks after a surgical abortion?

i took the first abortion pill (mifepristone) today at around 2 pm, and it’s almost 8 pm now.
ever since i took the first pill, i’ve been feeling a lot of regret and anxiety.

from what i’ve read, if i contacted someone right now, there might still be a chance to try a progesterone pill that can counteract the effects of the first abortion pill but i honestly don’t even know what i would do if i went down that road. if it ended up working and the pregnancy continued, then what? i feel like part of my problem is that i’m terrified of making the wrong decision, and i don’t know if i’m scared of the abortion itself, scared of continuing the pregnancy, or just scared of having to choose.

the thing is, if i had continued the pregnancy, i wouldn’t have kept the baby for myself. my plan would have been adoption, but not foster care. i would have wanted to choose a specific family myself and place the baby with a family i felt good about.

at the same time, i don’t know if i can handle being pregnant for that long. and the man who got me pregnant is just a hookup i regret. i don’t want to be pregnant, or have an abortion. this is terrible.

i haven’t taken the 4 misoprostol pills yet. those are supposed to be tomorrow. i’m terrified, i don’t know if i should try to reverse it now or continue the abortion. any advice?

i’m 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant and i have a medication abortion scheduled for tomorrow, and i’m honestly terrified.

i originally wanted the procedure because it seemed quicker and i felt like i would rather have a doctor handle everything, but i wasn’t able to get that scheduled right away, so now i have the pill abortion scheduled instead.

the problem is that i don’t even know what i want anymore. i don’t want to be pregnant, but i don’t want an abortion either. i know that probably sounds confusing, but that’s genuinely how i feel. i don’t want either option, and that’s why this has been so hard.

if i had things exactly the way i wanted them, i think i would continue the pregnancy and make an adoption plan. that’s what keeps pulling at my heart. but i also can’t picture myself being pregnant for another 7 months. i’ve been really sick, the nausea and vomiting have been awful, and the idea of staying pregnant for that long feels overwhelming and i'm so young and have a lot to do right now. i honestly don’t know if i can do it.

that’s why i keep going back and forth. one minute i think i should go through with the abortion, and the next minute i feel like i should continue the pregnancy and make an adoption plan.

another thing i’m scared of is continuing the pregnancy and then realizing later that i can’t handle it. i don’t want to get months into a pregnancy and completely change my mind because i feel like that would make everything exponentially harder. i know myself, and if i made it far enough into the pregnancy, i don’t think i would be able to get an abortion at that point. i couldn't do it. that’s part of why i feel so much pressure to make the right decision now.

i’m also terrified of the abortion itself. i’ve read so many stories online about pain, hemorrhaging, infection, sepsis, and other complications that i’ve completely worked myself up. i’m already dealing with horrible nausea from the pregnancy hormones, and i’m scared the pills are going to make everything even worse.

emotionally, i think that’s the hardest part. the idea of consciously taking something that i know will end the pregnancy honestly breaks my heart. i can’t even picture myself doing it. but at the same time, i don’t want to be pregnant.

the guy involved really wants me to get an abortion, and i feel like everyone around me has an opinion, but i still don’t know what i want. but i don't want to wait, this is a time sensitive issue.

has anyone else been in this position where they genuinely didn’t want either option? if you were torn between abortion and adoption, or keeping it how did you figure out what was right for you? i would really appreciate hearing from people who have been through something similar. i need advice or some sort of sign

update: i took the first pill. immediate regret. but i wasn’t going to keep it for myself anyways, i would have given it to a nice family. considering contacting the reversal line, but for why? to have a baby and give it away to stop the guilt of ending a pregnancy? i don’t know

about two weeks ago i had a really severe panic attack from caffeine, and ever since then it feels like it triggered my nervous system into a nonstop panic/adrenaline loop that has not shut off.

it’s been every single day. i have not felt a moment of calm since it started. not even for a second. even when i’m not actively having a full panic attack, my body feels extremely activated and wired like it’s stuck on adrenaline 24/7. then on top of that i get severe panic attacks throughout the day.

the weird part is mentally i feel aware of what’s happening. my mind feels okay. i know it’s adrenaline. i know it’s panic. but my body will not stop reacting. it feels completely physical, like my nervous system is just stuck in fight or flight and won’t come down.

at first it actually seemed like it was getting a little better. i was ignoring the panic attacks more and that was helping. but then it came back with a vengeance and now it feels worse than before. now my body feels so overwired that i can’t even ignore it anymore because the physical symptoms are so intense.

i was offered antidepressants but i can’t take them because they make me hyper and impulsive, so i’m too scared to go that route.

i tried propranolol, but it made me feel weird, and i’m scared to take it because i’ve heard it’s very dangerous since it works by lowering your heart rate, and i’m scared if something gets messed up or i react badly to it that something serious could happen.

i was prescribed lorazepam, and i’m scared to take it anymore because i’m almost out, and benzodiazepine withdrawals can be dangerous and can even kill you, which has been terrifying me. it also feels like my anxiety gets worse when it wears off.

i was also prescribed buspar, but i’m scared to start it because i read that buspar can cause nerve damage, and now i’m terrified to take it.

has anyone had a panic attack so severe that it turned into a nonstop panic/adrenaline loop for days or weeks after where your body just would not calm down no matter what? and no, it’s not a mental thing and i’m not anxious about anything. i truly feel like something in my body is off.

if this happened to you, what helped? did it eventually stop on its own? did medication help? i’m feeling really overwhelmed and i just want to know if anyone else has experienced this and what got them through it and what made it stop.

i drank coffee on an empty stomach a week ago and it triggered a week long panic attack. it has nothing to do with my feelings or emotions. my body is constantly in a panic state and if it’s not too bad i feel extremely tired. got an EKG and everything and everything is normal. will this go away naturally? or will i have this forever? will i ever go back to normal? every post ive seen about this it’s not looking promising because everyone i’ve seen on reddit it seems like they have to deal with it using medication and it seems to be an ongoing thing. i have never in my life experienced this and i hope with everything in me that it goes away normally. has anyone experienced this, how do i fix immediately?

About a week ago I drank a strong coffee on an empty stomach after not having caffeine for a long time, and ever since then I’ve been having severe symptoms that honestly feel like a panic attack that never stopped.
It started with a racing heart, chest tightness, shortness of breath, feeling like I couldn’t breathe or swallow properly, shakiness, nausea, adrenaline surges, twitching, and just this overwhelming feeling that something was seriously wrong with my body. The weird part is it doesn’t even feel mental. It feels completely physical.
Now it’s been a full week and I still have these symptoms every day. Once or twice a day I suddenly get hit with intense episodes again. Even small things like walking down stairs, standing up too fast, or slight movement can make me short of breath and trigger it.
I genuinely thought I had a heart problem, so I got scans, tests, chest x rays, etc. and they told me everything looked normal. Then I went to my doctor and he said it could be an issue with my nervous system or hypothalamus being overstimulated.
I honestly don’t know what to do because it feels like I triggered something in my body that won’t go away. It’s ruining my quality of life at this point because every day feels like being stuck in fight or flight.
Has anyone else experienced something like this after caffeine or stress? Did it eventually go away? I feel really alone in this.

I’m genuinely trying to understand the difference between intuition (from God) and fear/anxiety based thoughts, because I keep having an experience I can’t fully explain.

Before a recent flight, the day before, I had a very strong feeling that I shouldn’t go on the trip. It wasn’t a vague worry it felt like I genuinely shouldn’t have bought the tickets in the first place and I had a strong sense that going wasn’t right for me. I ended up sobbing because of that feeling like I felt very strongly that I shouldn’t go for absolutely no reason.

The next day, when I got to the airport, I actually felt completely fine. I wasn’t anxious in the moment nothing felt wrong and everything was normal.

While I was there, I tried to ground myself by imagining a purple light around me for calm protection.

From that state, I asked myself a very direct yes or no question in my head “Am I going to get on this flight”

What I immediately got in my mind was a very clear statement “You are not going to get on this flight”

And what’s important is how that moment felt it did NOT feel calm intuitive or grounded. It felt very dark heavy and extremely negative in tone almost like a low unsettling dark voice rather than any sense of peace or clarity. It felt nothing like intuition is usually described to feel.

At the same time it caught me completely off guard because at that exact moment everything in my environment was normal. Nothing was happening and there was no obvious reason for that to be the answer.

What confuses me is not just that moment but a pattern I’ve noticed.

Whenever I do these yes or no questions to myself in my head the “answers” always feel like they come from a negative or heavy place. It never feels aligned calm or reassuring like people describe intuition. It always feels emotionally intense unsettling and like it’s coming from something fearful or negative in tone.

At the same time sometimes these “answers” end up being accurate in real life which is what makes it so confusing for me.

So I feel stuck trying to understand what this is.

It makes me wonder
If intuition is supposed to feel calm what is this?
Why do these emotionally heavy or negative feeling “answers” often line up with real outcomes?
Am I getting my answers from a low vibrational source?

I believe in God, and I just want to have true intuition again not whatever this is, because it feels super negative. I pray all the time about this and nothing seems to work. Any insight? I’ve been struggling with this for so long.

p.s I’m fully aware that this sounds crazy but that’s why I’m asking, I just need clarity