i dont know what is happening atp.
I am an teenager studying in dubai, n I genuinely dont know whats going on with my life. I was forced into science n the pressure from my father was insane.Ever since before my 10th board exams my father used to talk bout how he wanted me to become a doctor n eventually he forced me into it. I am currently in 12th grade n my life has been hell since 10th. My father thinks of me as a puppet and hates when i have my own views. He has told me that I am a liability to him and wished no one ever gets a son like this , etc.. I dont smoke drink anything Infact I was a sports kid ever since i was young n recently i quit all the sports i played competitively. He wanted a child who was academically overbearing and excellent whereas i was always in the 80s. I have spent days thinking about how i can make him happy but that never happens, even if i get a gold medal in sports or my other hobbies.All i needed was "Im proud of you" n i never managed to get that. I spent countless night crying until the tears wouldnt come out. The only place where I could be myself was with friends and he didnt like that either so i dont go out much either.ive been told by people i have lost my spark and i dont know what to tell them
This post wasnt blame everything on my father, I may have not been the perfect son but to the people who need to hear it , Keep going and hopefully one day we make it.