I don’t even know where to start with this
My ex has an amateur sex tape online. I knew about it before we started dating because she told me herself, and I had seen the video when we first started seeing each other. We broke up around 6 months ago, and after that we had an on-and-off situationship where we’d see each other maybe once a month for about 4 months. It’s now been a month of complete no contact, and this time we’re done for good.
I blocked her on everything and I don’t want to see or talk to her again. She wanted to keep me around just for sex but i wanted a relationship with her still. The problem is that her video keeps randomly showing up on porn sites whenever I’m browsing. Somehow it seems pretty popular in my country/area, so every once in a while it just appears out of nowhere and completely shatters me.
I already know the obvious answer is probably to stop watching local porn, or maybe stop watching porn entirely for a while. But the bigger issue is that now the images are stuck in my head. Even when I’m not online, I’ll randomly picture her with the guy and it honestly crushes me every time.
I’m trying to fully move on and detach from her, but this keeps reopening everything. Has anyone dealt with something similar? How do you stop intrusive images/memories like this from messing with you? How do i completely move on from her/my situation.