I feel like my bf is ruining my life.
I literally cannot anymore. So you know I tell him everything and yesterday I was at psychologist's with my parents because we have problems with cps and when we came back home, I texted my boyfriend about it and today, when I came home a few hours ago my mom told me that my boyfriend texted him about the psychologist. Like oh my lord.
The psychologist literally told my parents to befriend my boyfriend's parents and I told him that but he said that his mom is scared to talk to people even though she works as a cashier. Like what's the logic here. And then my mom showed me the message, I read it and I immediately texted my boyfriend about it. And now I'm not answering his messages or calls because I'm so mad at him. Like he didn't even tell me about it. I asked him and he said his mom wanted him to text my mom because she was scared.
And now since my dad came back from work, both of them started talking to me. They even threatened to give me away if I didn't want to live here but I literally can't.
I want to cut so bad but I can't because my mom knows and cps and they will ask me if I did it or no. Like I really want to but I can't because I'm scared they will put me to a psychiatric hospital or something. I'm trying to heal but my boyfriend is making everything worse for me while he's getting better. Like his mental health is getting better while mine is hanging on the last thread.
I don't know what to do, I can't vent to anyone because I barely have any friends and they don't know about my family with cps.