Voice training is so hard especially because I think I sound horrible
I recently started voice training for voice feminization, I know it is supposed to take time and it is supposed to be hard, I don’t excpect changes to appear magically in a few sessions but yuck that is sounding horrible to me. I hate it especially because it makes my voice horrible (perhaps I have been used to not hearing my own voice) but now I just feel like shit again, it took me two years to start feeling good in my body and yet again I hate myself and I hate how I sound. I am crying right now I feel like an idiot with someone else's voice
I know it IS hard and it does take time for everyone, I know a lot of people do hate this thing too but right now I can’t, I can’t take it it feels horrible and honestly I feel like trash. I know I have to keep going but damn this is hard as hell, litterally feeling like a torture to me..
I don’t usually feel like this, sorry if my post isn’t proper (also sorry for mistakes english isn’t my native speech) I just feel so down and bad I can’t stand this alone.
I would love to have some people IRL with me to help but I don’t, neither friends that could support me nor proffessionals near me, I am alone in this situation and it feels like hell