I (20M) want to get back into contact with my ex (20F) but I don't know if I should?
For context, me and my ex dated for about 9 months and have been broken up for almost months. It was a serious relationship at least I felt it was and we were each other's first. We broke up because of me watching adult content. It was during a pretty emotional time for us as she had been going through a depression. She doesn't like her partner to be watching adult content like that because her ex before me had done the same but had also gotten to the point of cheating on her. He was very abusive towards her verbally and such during those arguments. I knew about this yet I did it anyways. It isn't anything I'm proud of continuing and in fact I've been working on quitting viewing that type of content. I never once made her feel as if she was unloved or not attractive enough which was something that we had talked about. I get mixed answers from my friends about the topic mostly leaning towards going for it. But I just feel like with what I did was too betraying towards her and contacting might just anger her. I genuinely do love her and think about her a lot still and have been trying to better myself since we broke up. I know it's kind of a short relationship and the gap between it starting to widen a lot but I just can't stop thinking about talking with her again. Sorry if my tone is off I'm just really lost on what to do here
EDIT: I forgot to mention the topic of me watching adult content came up after she asked me if I was because we hadn't been intimate for awhile due to her own personal reasons which I understood.