u/Grouchy_Jury6737

I’d like to say TGIF but for many of us the weekend is the most dangerous time on our road back from gambling dependence and addiction. Before you place that wager, pick that sports game, make that trade, scratch that ticket or press that button… take a deep breath and play through the scenario of losing. Not winning but walking away with zero or worse than zero which is chasing, borrowing to chase, clawing back the payments to bills you may have sat down and made before you started gambling… whatever it is that gets you a few more bucks to “get even”

I won’t be gambling because I have zero desire to screw myself over anymore. Real rock bottom is when the scenario of playing, losing and negotiating with yourself (the self that is screaming at you to stop the bleeding) to play longer has been played out.

For me, now I’m strategizing payday on how I transfer that fervor for gambling that I used to have (you know, that ability to squeeze 500 -1000 bucks out of nowhere to gamble with) to getting ahead on bills, randomly giving my kid a couple hundred just because, and to spend twice as much as normal at the grocery store. I’m working hard on making that shift from opening my wallet to the casinos, to opening it to the people and places that heal me, not harm me.

Whatever you do this weekend be sure you can emotionally and financially afford the aftermath 👍 I am looking forward to opening this subreddit on Monday and hopefully reading how some of you abstained. ODAAT

It will take me approximately 6-7 months to pay the $3138 for attorney and court fees. But there’s light at the end of this dark tunnel. He did not recommend me stopping payment to creditors so looks like I’ll be doing that up to the day I file. Idc as long as there’s a positive outcome 👍

I feel like gambling plain and simple. GA helps, but I still want to gamble. Of course, I’d be INSANE to do it considering I dug the deepest hole I’ve EVER been in. Want a wake up call? Owe a LOT of money to creditors. I am paying 39% of my income on my gambling debt every.single.paycheck Think about that, do you want to never have money for 3 to 5 years? I told myself that once I hit 12 months sober I’m going to file bankruptcy. Not one day sooner because I have to be 10000000% sure I won’t go back to gambling. You only get to file I think it’s once every 7 or 8 years. Nah, I want a fresh start with no chance I will screw myself over. Some say I shouldn’t pay all that money just to have my debt forgiven in bankruptcy. I disagree. For those of you who are in $200, $1000 dollars in debt… stop going down the road you’re on and change your path. Do whatever it takes. Don’t be like me

Had my first meeting, and it blew me away. Powerful stuff, highly recommend it. I meet with a gambling therapist Friday morning as well. Honestly, this subreddit has helped me more than anything. Praying we all get the help we need.