Flashbacks to SA: How to cope?
About 2 years ago while I (20M) was a freshman at University, I was taking a shower. In the midst of it, I saw a top half of an iPhone, with the camera app open and actively recording me while I was showering. I remember kicking it away and waiting for the other man to leave the stall so I can see him. I saw him leave, he was who I believed my RA in the dorms I was staying at, and we began to stare at each other and I was astounded, I couldn’t say anything. I felt anger, shame, all the emotions, and yet I felt as if I couldn’t say anything, like I wouldn’t be taken seriously if I reported it.
I pretty much hid it for a few years, very rarely reminiscing on it until a conversation about SA got brought up with my current girlfriend very recently where I told her my story, the only person I’ve told about my experience.
And since then, I have been battling a lot of thoughts about it, and reexperiencing a lot of emotions about the experience. I don’t feel comfortable going out to my therapist or psych about it, but I just wanna know how one copes with an experience like this. It’s a tough situation that has had a lot of impact on me since I’ve come out to University, and I just want to understand the experience and my emotions arising from it so I can better move through the future.
Edit: I’ve come to understand Voyeaurism as not being SA because there wasn’t any physical element with it, but I just needed a space to vent about it