Worst Gambling relapse I’ve ever had. Online casino’s are the worst.
Hi all, one of my worst addictions has to be pokies. Once I put a dollar in it takes control of me until I’ve put everything I can find back in. Even if I win big I eventually put it all back in. I’ve lost god knows how much over 20 years, at least 250k probably a lot more.
When I started a family I mostly gave it up apart from a few small lapses and nothing for about 5-6 years. A few months ago I was under financial stress and got another loan to help out. Of course the thought crept into my head that while the money was sitting there, putting 50 bucks into online pokies wouldn’t hurt just to take my mind off things for a bit.
3 months later and I’m now over 20k further in debt. On top of existing debts I now have 8 loans/credit cards/payday loans all maxed out with repayments coming out every week. I can barely get out of bed some mornings for work.
I’ve tried multiple times to close my online casino account and they either ignore me or offer me bonuses/promotions instead.
I haven’t told anyone in real life because I honestly can’t imagine explaining it. I have 2 kids and a partner and I feel like I’ve financially ruined us for the near future.
I know this is my own fault but I feel like I’ve lost control of it. Has anyone here been this deep and actually managed to come back from it? It’s an off shore account and nothing I try manages to get the casino to listen to me pleading to close my account