bhai itni neend aati h padhai ke samay ke kuch samjh bhi nhi aata. I know im supposed to be studying and i get up to study but i just feel sleepy. I hv some health issues and immunity problem but I feel sleepier than usual. Kya karu ab, and if i take a nap, the 20 mins nap turns to 4 hr nap. and raat ko padhai nhi hoti merse so kya karu yar
tution thi(sir started ac) but test got cancelled but issi week hogi i don't fucking understand current ok sir ne kaise karwa diya i didn't understand shi ab one shot samjh nhi aa rhi, mohit tyagi se bhi nhi ho rhi, pw khazana se karlungi ab kya fuck this
Idk i felt exhausted and tired pure din, studied 1 hr subhe and felt so hungry but kuch khaane ko nhi tha ❤️ so what did i? I slept, wtv bro I'll do better tomorrow
Goals for tom
/- lec 3 and 4 iupac
/-lec 1 current
/- lec 6 matrices
/- start dc electrostats ques
/- continue solutions nk ques
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technically this shudve been day 83 but we're skipping yesterday ok
ykw cudve done more if i woke up early but it's wtv, this is the most I've studied in the past 2 weeks so it's okay, momentum is lwk back 🥹🙏🏻🙏🏻 ok gn im gonna sleep also dcp is highk goated
kal ke goals
\-complete current electricity dcp all modules
\-complete chemical bonding one shot
\-MAYBE lec 6 matrices
man my conjuctivities keeps getting worse n worse and it's paining a lot. Somehow did that much, honestly I cud push more but my eyes are hurting so bad. I cudve done way more but I took nap from 2-5 then motivation got fucked. Its ok im slowly jumping back, im rlly behind but ykw im not gonna stress over it
-i did 1.5lecs of chemical kinetics, hw questions
-1lec of matrices+hw+dpp but I wasn't able to finish it, like 5-6 questions were left/i cudnt do them
That's it ig. Gonna do better from tom :/
Bye gn
my conjuctivities somehow got worse than yesterday, woke up and my eye was so swollen i cudnt even open it, slept late bcs it was hurting a lot, had a paracetamol abhi so I'm hoping the pain reduces.
Did chem ka hhw aaj full(kitna hhw diya h bhai i swear khud ko maar dungi) no studying but kal se I'll lock in, mumma is better now
Gn ty
money is needed for survival and for someone who has seen what life is without money, its natural for them to study for money. Ofc no one is gonna become elon musk by studying but it's gonna get you somewhat of a better life and anyone who disagrees is just wrong.
I see people always boasting about how they do it for the love of the game but I don't think they realise how privileged they are to even choose a path they're passionate abt. I understand where they're coming from but they get upset when someone says they're doing it for money. Why does my reason have to be the same as theirs? At the end of the day no one wants to work anyways, we all just do for survival and if ur coming from a humble background then u shudnt even judge someone for doing it for money bcs u don't understand what it is like to just get by.
At the end of the day we're all trying to survive, "passion" is a product of capitalism, just because someone dosent have one or isn't pursuing it, that dosent make them less or more
its so fucking hot
went to tution, did kinematics cengage like idk 20 questions maybe, they were easy obviously but good revision ig
did lec 2 of matrices(im rlly behind. Sunday probably won't give test), then did uska hw
did some ncert questions from matrices and det, um easy the obviously just wanted to do them bcs i hv no brain power
Did 10 questions of liq solution from neeraj kumar, till solution in liq in liq(I'll continue tomorrow maybe)
had to make dinner for mumma, she's walking now and kal stitch utarne jana padega so yeah. Im rlly tired, ik my hours less but i rlly want my mom to get better first, uske baad we'll grind ok pakka i promise, im just busy w housework.
okay gn bye thank u fuckme
Which book shud i do? My maths is getting weak bcs i don't practice much and cengage nhi hoti bhai i get confused.
Agar module karni h then which one shud i do? Hw and class illustrations karleti hu class ki
I can't fucking do this anymore, im neglecting my studies for my mom and shes taking it for granted.
Cudnt study shit bcs mom wants oatmeal then she wants paneer then she wants egg toast i mean fuck bro why dosent maasi help me YARRR
Went to tution, did 20 questions from electrostatics and that's abt it
Kal tution mei 11th ki cengage lagaungi
Im so fucking behind and my mom isn't even appreciating all that I'm doing for her, also fell down the stairs cried and acted like nothing happened to my mom 💔it can't get more depressing than this.
fuck my life bro
fuck my life❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
went to tution, they finished magnetism 💔wo bhi like 4 days(4lecs ig 2hrs each) bro 💔 next monday current electricity test h so studied thoda from hcv, did matrices lec 1 since I'm rlly behind and uska dpp. That's it, i woke up at 7 but pure din i was busy taking care of my mom bcs surgery 💔 i hv to take her to washroom, help her up n down, walk after every meal, give her meds ETCCC i can't type anymore 💔 taking care of a sick person is not for the weak but i just hope she heals soon like it's ok yar wtv gn
went to tution, they finished magnetism 💔wo bhi like 4 days(4lecs ig 2hrs each) bro 💔 next monday current electricity test h so studied thoda from hcv, did matrices lec 1 since I'm rlly behind and uska dpp. That's it, i woke up at 7 but pure din i was busy taking care of my mom bcs surgery 💔 i hv to take her to washroom, help her up n down, walk after every meal, give her meds ETCCC i can't type anymore 💔 taking care of a sick person is not for the weak but i just hope she heals soon like it's ok yar wtv gn
woke up early to see off mumma to the hospital, studied like 20 mins then had to leave for hospital
10am to 6pm hospital mei hi thi man hospital shi is exhausting like idk it made me realise what good of a decision it was to not go for neet, i was regretting not taking bio bcs at some point i wanted to be a doctor but I'm glad I didn't.
came home, mom is still at the hospital btw then studied 40 mins more and did ghar ka kaam 😔 man what an exhausting day i wanna pass out rn
I did chemical bonding ka one shot till formal charge(decided to do this then start oc from starting, summer vacay mei ho jayega hopefully)
Man i just know this summer vacation is gonna be stresfuckingfull, when mumma will return I'll prob have to do the cooking n rest of the shi too , im working against all odds here bhai but ykw we're not gonna lose hope 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 FAHHHH
woke up late, my mom has a surgery tomorrow so I was busy with stuff, idk I'll probably busy tomorrow too okay so didn't do much and revised dielectrics cus like why not
Revised electric potential and capacitance
That's it, i hd other stuff going on today
i hv fever
just did 10 solutions pyqs iss saal ke
did half of chemical kinetics ka ek lec
tried doing det but fuck maths yar i dont know why i even chose it why did i think i was good at math acha ok whatever
gonna sleep rn bcs my head is killing me and i think abhi bhi temp h bye
didn't study at all today just revised and did some maths practice for the test which i ended up fucking up bcs idk I lost my will to give the test after physics and this ass pw site wasn't loading the questions and i kept getting frustrated, i mostly skipped maths and fucked chem up a bit but it was rlly easy, i got 186..... Its fine ig atleast I gave the test, now ik where I stand and that i shud be doing better anyways that's it bye
Studied two hrs phy practice ki ncert bhi kari cus why not then went to tution i think at 10:30 and gave the test. IT WAS SO SHIT bruh I was sleep deprived asf, i didn't sleep last night so I'm guessing that's why I messed up easy stuff but the test itself was very basic, don't hv marks but it's like low but thike yar it's ok
Ghar pe aake biryani khayi yum then had a fat nap from 4 to 8, ate dinner watched lec 14 electrostatics, did uski hw and dpp and that's it for today AND subhe phy prac mei electric field tak allen modules lagayi thi
mid day i feel sleep deprived, kal pw test h so I'll revise phy notes
pls maths practice karni h det bohot hw abhi bhi baki h and matrices mei 6 lecs behind..... Smh kal maths day hoga after test and that's it thank u for reading bye bye
Idk same as title, less amount of lecs h so
aaj tution tha waha pe did capacitance ke 15 pyqs too so idk thiki the, capacitance easy h
phy mei completed 2 lecs of electrostatics actually nvm already likha h why am I even bothering to write
Kal solutions ka lec ka jo hw h wo karungi and revise full solutions altho i think ek aur lec baki h
revise electric charges and field from PW ke notes and tution, do hcv and kal tution mei test h so wahi karna h
I think I'm ignoring maths which isn't ok honestly, im 5 lecs behind matrices mei and det ke hw baki h 3 lecs ke 2dpps sigh, I'll focus on them on friday
Idk why but when I study ok so listen, when I study more than an hr, mera brain stops working like say I completed lec and then moved on to the hw, my brian just dosent work or like i did phy and like without a break started chem my brain just stops working. I can't process stuff idk man I've been rlly tired and i keep gaining weight ts is rlly pissing me off