I Feel I'll Make a Mistake
Bad timing. I want a divorce. I shouldn't have married him in the first place and that's my own fault. Should have known when he had 8 months to write me wedding vows and wrote them (I'm serious and being literal) 12 minutes before I walked the aisle. (Copied it online and had his mom help with the rest). Out of everyone in my life he is the LEAST in love with me. Will not even touch me or actually talk to me. Sits on his phone for HOURS and gets annoyed at his own kid trying to interact in any way that distracts him from doing so. I have to repeat every single thing I say. I kid you not.. I have tallied. I repeated myself to him 23 times today. We both got home at 5. He has gained weight. I'm not any less attracted to him sexually, however he has to sit when doing any task. Wouldn't even surprise me if he got a shower chair. Blew past mother's day without even saying anything and TWO of our anniversaries. Says he doesn't want to get me the wrong thing, even after I send him a list of options. Always buys me something (but only something he benefits from) to shut me up. Holds my hand and makes this godforsaken child whiny sound. Then quickly pulls away cause he hates the idea of touching me. Talks me out of doing anything because he "misses me." Then just sits on his phone all day (but in the same room, how romantic). Not saying a word to me. I can't afford to feed him his 6 serving meals. Every time I get the guts to leave he gets all cute with our kid. Let me out let me out let me OUT. Can someone tell me I'm not being evil?