I want to take quitting serious. I am a dopamine addict
I started using cocaine in February when a friend (cat) introduced me to it. I didn’t start off doing a lot but over April and may it has gotten worse. I had my fist binge two weeks ago and it scared me. I did quit for a week but I did some this week. I realized that the reason I keep stopping and starting is because I can’t control my impulses. I don’t have contact with the plug I just do it/ get it From my friend (cat) (I drive her to the plugs house and she will get it for me). It’s not her fault because I don’t say no when she ask, I told her not to ask me but since she does so much she forgets and will mention doing it when we hangout and I just go along with it even though I told myself I’d quit. But I need to put some distance between me and her because I can’t keep doing this and clearly the issue is my lack of ability to say no to it. I really want to hold myself accountable because it’s not her job to stop me I need to stop myself. The reason why I do it goes back years, before the weed and coke there was tiktok and I’ve been addicted to it for so long it’s messed my dopamine levels up. I deleted it and I want to take the next step and that’s quitting coke.
Any advice or words of encouragement will be greatly appreciated, and if anyone is going through the same thing message me and we can talk.