Hi, guys. So, basically I feel like my boss is slowly cataloging everything I do wrong and using my ADHD diagnosis against me. Normally, when I have had other jobs in the past, I do super great. Most jobs I have had were really hands-on and stimulating.
This job? It's very slow, and attention to detail focused. Auditing and scanning. Lots of paperwork. It wasn't supposed to be this much, but my boss liked my enthusiasm and met it with making me learn everyone's roles in the office. Well, now I'm crashing and burning. Can't maintain the mask.
So, I start messing up. Forgetting to fill out certain parts on forms. Lots and lots of small mistakes.
So, I felt embarrassed and told my boss I had ADHD - diagnosed and I am not medicated currently. I feel like I made a mistake telling her this. I thought it would make her a bit more empathetic. Now I feel like it's just made her notice my mistakes more.
I make the same mistakes she does, and yet she pulls me in her office anyway to tell me that I need to pay better attention to details. Every day she tells me "Attention to detail!" whenever I'm doing something. Even when it's something like me forgetting to turn off a light in a room that she was leaving with me.
It's gotten to the point where I just perpetually feel anxious at work. Like any mistake I make is being tally marked against me, even though my coworkers make the same ones and they're not talked to about it.
Anyway, I'm going to try to go back on my meds.