Stuck in SJ hell.
Not my main account, for reasons that will be clear in a second. I just need a second to vent/plead for help/rage against an unfeeling God who has abandoned us like the deadbeat father that he is. I’m stuck in SJ purgatory waiting on a judge who, if I had to guess, is writing her opinion one word at a time. We’re well past the 2 year mark. Oh and plot twist, yes I am an attorney but in this specific instance I am also a plaintiff. Which is cool in the sense that I’m sure every surgeon has also wanted to be a patient… 🥴
I thought I was doing ok even though I was slowly getting more and more impatient, but I’ve really been feeling it ever since we passed that 2 year anniversary. And there’s not a whole lot to be done, as those of you in federal practice know. I love how little oversight there is over the judiciary… but that’s a convo for another day. It feels like my entire life has been paused- I’m still making life choices with the case in mind. I’m still frozen in this period of my life that has been so defined by this case. I feel stagnant in a way that’s hard to explain and it’s really starting to mess with my mental health. Other people in related cases have since resolved theirs, and here I sit. Waiting for Godot. Oh and another fun part of this is that there’s a public interest aspect here, and I’m resentful that it’s being held up for that reason too. I’m also low-key suspicious that the judge’s personal political outlook has something to do with the delay. And I can’t do ANYTHING about any of it. All I can do is wait and it is literally starting to drive me crazy.
If anybody has any helpful advice/anecdotes/words of solidarity, it would be so greatly appreciated. Please tell me two years is nearing the end of how long I can be waiting on this damn decision.