u/Grungecutie

My boyfriend and I have been dating for a little over a year and I've been having really bad trust issues and to make a long story short; we were long distance and because of a toxic living environment I moved in with him. Yes, we moved really fast i know. He told me he was single for a very very long time and over that time he accumulated a lot of following on social media (following only fans models interacting with them and what not). I told him about my past and my boundaries and asked him to get rid of all of it and that I was very uncomfortable and if he didn’t agree or it was going to be a problem I didn’t want to pursue a relationship with him. He agreed and said it was a really simple thing to respect and it wouldn’t be an issue. As time goes on he doesn’t make changes (go through his following to unfollow them) he even lied about one of them and made up this crazy story about how his best friend bought this random girl something but in reality he lied so he could keep following her because she was pretty?? And then the biggest thing is he had a Reddit account dedicated to porn, only fans models, contacting people, etc etc and that was my final straw. He deleted all of his socials and really has put in the effort to show me it’s never going to be a problem again. He really is a sweet guy and I’m really not just saying that to stay in this relationship or because I’m in denial.. it’s been atleast 6 months and I’m still not over it.. idk how to get over it or move on.. he really has changed but part of me also still has a really bad gut feeling.. I just need help or advice on how to start to break down my walls. (I also have deep rooted trauma from family and previous relationships) .. I’m also bipolar and have anxiety and severe ptsd.. (I’m also summarizing a lot of this)..