marriage expectations…
hello. i am 20f desi muslim living in the united states. i am also not attracted to men and ive definitely been this way pre internet (yes, les bian, sorry im not sure how to add to a thread). i am the eldest in my family and eldest granddaughter on my moms side so i have a lot of expectations to get married, especially when my own mom got married at 18. i thought i could push this talk at least until i graduated college so i could be a bit financially stable (i do want to go to med school tho but ive been saving for a few years) and maybe have an honest talk, but this past week my mom has shown me this random guy to be my rishta/possible partner. i’m floored and honestly idk what to do. i can’t do it. even ignoring my own needs i can’t drag some rando into some loveless marriage. and i have such a fear of men and getting sa-ed bc of this. what do i do. i don’t think my parents will ever be accepting, but i was hoping that maybe i could get away with being single forever and now it feels like that dream has been shot in the dark and i’m in this reality where i have to get married or i risk disappointing everyone who sacrificed everything for me. i just need advice