I’m really sexually attracted to women’s bodies. I have fantasized about them so many times. When I was younger I broke up with my ex boyfriend and told him I thought I was gay.
I dated women for years. But the 10 women I slept with were all just meh experiences. Kissed more than that, and rarely felt turned on by it or sparks - even if I liked the woman. It did happen with a few, but it wasn’t common.
Men I almost always get sparks and aroused whenever we cuddle or kiss, or even that anticipation.
But whenever I get into a relationship with a man I start to question myself. The romantic attraction is so strong and I am so happy, but I don’t often feel turned on by a man’s body, but women I am super aroused while I see them walking around in real life (bedroom feels less for some reason - demi?)
Sex with either gender often feels like something I am supposed to do. Occasionally I have had great sex with my male partners, as it either feels amazing and/or feels like I am making love.
I can’t tell if I am in denial and a lesbian, or actually bisexual.