How do I get over episodes of wanting chubby women ?
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For the longest time ever, I was a certified chubby women, torta, thicked Up, cellulite bottom thunder thighs, belly, you get the memo, lover. But about 3 years ago, I fell in love with my current partner, whom I love very very dearly, genuinely always loved them with all my heart and always will, no matter what happens. The problem is that, my partner has lost a significant amount of weight from health related issues, not that they were chubby or anything before, but now that they are literally skinny, it's really hard on me sexually, when I'm just at home and I see one on the internet it stings but it's nothing bad, but when I go outside and see all the women walking around Ir just dawns on me, in that moment I just feel trapped, the thought that I wil never ever touch and feel such women is just , torture, and at that moment I just feel terrible, from the fact that I can't have it, from the fact that I look at other women like that, for the fact that our sexual life isn't really that great because of it, all of it just dawns on me and I feel extremely bad. How do I stop these episodes? I don't want to hurt my partner, I want a healthy sexual life with my partner and for our relationship to be happy