I (24F) am living at home with my mother (53F) and father (55M), who have been separated for 20 years, two older sisters (32F and 27F), AND my grandmother (77F). It's a full house. On top of that, my oldest sister's son (4M) also lives here.
Sister 1 (32F) is chronically broke and unemployed, smokes every day, and is in and out of being depressed and weirdly idyllic about the ideas she thinks up after talking to ChatGPT for hours. Sister 2 (27F) has an intellectual disability and will mentally forever be 14 y/o. She also has this boyfriend who has an intellectual disability too who she's run away with multiple times. My grandmother was recently diagnosed with Dementia, is basically incontinent, leaving the house smelling like a nursing home at times. She's so depressed and confused all the time. My dad has been unemployed basically all my life, couch surfing with family members, and most recently my mom for the last 10 years. He's MAJORLY depressed, obese, and has advanced RA. He can barely walk, has to pee in containers, and rarely bathes.
I AM SO OVERWHELMED. I don't have the money to move out right now, but I hate living at home. I try to hang out with friends, and to be as positive as I know how, but the weight of what feels like a impending legacy of failure is crushing me. I resent everyone in this house so much. As soon as I walk in the door, I feel the chronic disappointment of everyone there.
I wish my mom would evict my oldest sister and my dad. Let them fend for themselves...or something. Idk, I feel like I'm shouting into a void. Please let me know if this resonates with anyone. I feel so alone.