i’ve recently deconstructed (exmuslim) and had to come to the reconning that the faith and spirit i once had is gone. i used to use religion as a some what of a coping mechanism for negative emotions and general hope. but having been without that for some time, at times i fear i wont be able to produce the same feelings hope and belief in something other than the physical. but i think music, and for much of my life as i’ve discovered, carries so much spiritual energy for me. i’ve been trying to explore all types of music within the black diaspora and the connection and serenity i feel with so much of this music has been more grounding than anything. primary example being that although im not christian, there is something so grounding in big gospel music. it’s not something i can describe with language but i feel so connected to a community i’ve never really been a part of. that mystical optimism of the clark sisters all but lifts spirits.
the mantra-like nature of black music is so powerful and resonant. and i feel this way about every genre of black music whether it be afro beats, bouyon, or black country. there is a tether that connects the diaspora and the fact that i can feel it through music of different types, languages, and times has been more special to me than anything scripture i’ve ever read.
note:i know this whole things been pretty incoherent (writing this listening to karen clark singing take it by force at 1am in my university library) but i had to get it off my chest. i wonder if anyone else feels similarly (especially black women with music made by other black women)