Problems with anorexia
Hi everyone,
I am a 26 year old female and I have been struggling with an eating disorder for years. I am losing weight every day and I can not make myself eat anything. 2 months ago I started treatment in my local area and it was going fine at first, but then I felt like they were not listening to me at all and if I had a minor setback they said things like ''it's your choice to be here and if you don't want to, we can end the treatment''. They did not give me any advice, only said things like ''well how do you feel?'', ''well what do you think'' and everything started feeling like they were following some kind of script: if this person acts like this -> this happens etc., so I relapsed hard. The therapist just keeps saying ''if you don't want this, end the treatment'', but I DO want to, but my eating disorder takes over my head and thoughts all the time and they don't tell me how to shut it down. Is this experience normal? I feel like they don't give a shit, because I am an adult, so everything is my own choice. I have been told the centre in Odense is more experienced in this area. Does anyone have any experience with it?
I start to feel like these specialists don't really understand anorexia and what goes on inside our heads with an eating disorder. It is not a simple script... I want to start eating, but it is so hard to do it alone. What other options do I have? :/ Pls help before it gets really bad