u/Guilty_Sell_4582

I’ve seen this concept a lot on this forum and I think it’s too simple of a way of describing and a bit inconsiderate.

As evil, and as traumatic as these people can be, I think reducing yourself to a supply in relation to them, is just a furthering of that trauma that they’ve given you.

I believe they like the way you make them feel, but I also don’t think they view you as a supply in the literal sense that I’ve seen written here.

I’m sure my situation is unique just like everyone else’s, but I refuse to label myself an object or a supply for another human being even in relation to our relationship.

Im curious on your guys’ perspectives.

Thanks for readin.

Never posted here but I always read through others posts and it seems to help so I would love to get your direct feedback on this phenomenon.

My pwBPD and I split in February, she discarded over text after 3 years, blocked me and removed me on just about everything. After roughly 3 years of on and off breakups, hospitalizations and what most would call exceptional emotional dedication and resilience from a partner. I had the naive hope that this would build respect, or honor in what we had gone through together.

I have tried to use willpower and everything in me to not check her stuff or contact etc.

But still, sitting here 3 months out it almost feels like there’s still a chain tying us together. What I mean by that is all those same emotional abuse patterns are still there. For example, even though she chose to leave I still feel responsible for her emotions? Like her lonelinesses.

She graduates college today and I feel almost guilty that I’m not there for her. Despite the fact she chose this outcome?

I’m curious if anyone else is having trouble almost breaking that chain of conditioning.

Thanks for reading!