u/Gullible-Ad5632

I had a weird dream my stepdad raped me (he was an evil manipulative alcoholic man irl, comitted suicide last september) and i tried to tell my mom she denied it, got drunk and had these goat eyes when she was really drunk, drove me to my dads place (in the dream was this outdoors mall kind of place(?)) and was stumbling all the way there when we got out the car but she had these goat eyes that didnt focus anywhere and kept jumping around like a seizure patient. i tried to get her to not get back in the car afterwards but woke up. help plz what does this mean. me and my mother are estranged we havent talked in years