I am a stay at home dad [33M] I am not sure I love my partner anymore [33F] and have developed feelings for another woman [29F]
Throwaway account for obvious reasons.
I am currently in an 8 year relationship with the mother of my children, both under the age of 4. I am not sure that I love her like I used to. I have had these feelings before but have chalked it down to just the rough patch of sleep deprivation and her working 6 or 7 days a week.
I became a stay at home dad a year ago when we decided to leave the big city and move to the country so she can further her own career. She is the breadwinner in our relationship. She works hard and I am very grateful for the opportunities it has given our family.
We stopped being intimate and have had sex maybe 6 or 7 times in the last 12 months, my drive is still there but I don't seek it or desire it with her like I once did, I don't feel like I'm missing out so to speak. I just don't feel the attraction that I once did and I have felt this way for a while now.
Since moving I met someone online in a game, I wasn't looking for anything but we just started talking and absolutely hit it off. We have been chatting for about 5 months now and I adore this woman in a way i don't think I ever felt about my current partner. The issue i have with this woman is that she lives basically on the other side of the world. I would 100% jump on a plane and risk it all for this woman if it wasn't for the children. The thought of doing it now terrifies me as doing it would be the end of my current relationship.
I am feeling very stuck between getting through these early years with the children and hoping to rekindle some spark we once had or pursue this other woman who gives me butterflies whenever we talk.
I feel financially trapped in this relationship a bit and if I end it I am very afraid about having to find my feet again. I don't want to be a financial burden on someone else.
How have others navigated similar scenarios? Will take any advice. Feeling very lost
Edit - She works 6 or 7 days by choice. We can easily get by with her working less. She says she will cut down next year.