ocd hell ?
So one of the thing that REALLY triggers my ocd is mentions of death and stuff on TV or like if i see a video on it. Even writing that word was hell ( i had to write the word “alive” several times after that lol). As soon as i hear something about, i have to listen to more Tv or videos etc, until i feel satisfied that the audio i hear as cleansed the thought. Normally i have to do this for 100 sentences and i always count it in 4s. (loll this is so sillyyy bruh😭😭). I know this compulsion doesn’t change the future but just makes me me feel like i’ve got permission to let the bad thought go. Sometimes i can be doing this for HOURSSS. It is so time consuming. If i don’t do the compulsion, it’s literally like life is not real until i’ve done it. Like my vision goes bad lol oh my gawd. ANYWAYSSS i was just wondering if anyone has a similar ocd trait like this. thank youuuu