u/Gullible-Chocolate42

It's been 2 years and 5 months guys this is not possible it's unending... I deal with my body burning everyday my spine.. My head hurts not only burning but tightness and pain.. My blood gets high my body tightens... I do blood work every 3 - 4 months lipid profile kft everything is close to normal.. I don't understand what's wrong .... Feels like cancer or am I dying I can't even climb stairs without getting breathless I'm even underweight... This is unreal at 2.5 years

I've battled really everything whatever the withdrawal threw at me I never looked back I had a day when there was no hope laying on my bed with crushed Klonopin near my bed that if it's the last breath id only take it then I had no option so the only med i used for emergency was Gabapentin - 100 mg tablets which I think is negligible dose but still I took it like 40 - 50 tablets in these years .... As of now the symptoms are just worsening my head feels like it'll explode sometimes my stomach turns like a wood I look my a zombie 45.5 kilogram i've turned 27 and a half yo now.... I still have that crushed Klonopin in my wallet from last year Ive lost myself into oblivion I do not know what to do or will i be able to resist anymore

Thanks.