u/Gullible-Mousse-8343

Dammmmm this shit is hard. My 2nd time quitting first time was with NRT (ended up relapsing because it was winter and I had terrible depression when I quit and I guess I needed an excuse) and this time I just didn’t want to deal with replacing nic just wanted to tear the bandaid off (depression feels more under control bc of working out and summer). Man I almost bummed a cigarette today because easier to come back from than buying a vape. Instead just went for a bike ride and then had a drink and then took a nap. Wow that craving was insane worst one yet. It’s like the brain just highjacks you and you are like give me some nicotine noooowwwwww cunt. Nicotine is like my washed up older sister that is like hey girly I’m your comfort your sweet sweet friend. Fuck you sis go home. I have been doing anything for a dopamine hit working out like crazy, “me” time, social time, cold showers. I wish I could be super casual and have a cigarette from time to time but I’m a fucking nicotine crack head. Fuck everyone that let vapes into our culture. Ok off to the gym. Rant over. I do have a pack of chantix maybe tomorrow if I have mad cravings I’ll start it. I just don’t want to have to withdrawal from chantix too. Many in this sub say there is withdrawal from it as well.

My 75 yo mother has always suffered from disordered, eating binging and deprivation. Her parents were really toxic to her about her body weight and throughout my childhood I begged her to get help. She got her stomach stapled many years ago. She has countless plastic surgeries in the past and now with GLP1 she’s lost 20 pounds in the past few months and she started out a normal weight. She is so proud of this and she likes to brag to me that now she weighs less than I do. Meanwhile, she looks like a skeleton and has zero muscle mass and can barely walk. My friend’s 85-year-old mother walks better than she does. I’ve tried to put her on an exercise schedule and even get her personal trainer once a week even though it’s beyond my expenses. I literally have no idea why her doctor keeps prescribing her is GLP1 she does not need it. She is finally in therapy, but even though it’s helping sort of, it’s not helping her have a positive relationship with her body. I would love any advice that people may have. Thank you in advance.